Time flies like Arrow ------>>

Addicted to Norah Jones's songs recently. There's a feeling of softy nerdy feel when am listening to her voice. It's just melted me with the soul of the songs. I can even feel the wind blow on my face. Xoxo.

Didnt have any plans recently as of am still staying at the same place - h e l l, owh, I mean my job. Lol, too long for the working hours, and moi didnt really enjoy much outing. Most recent outing will be tea-ing session with my peeps at mamak and we do cockz a lot, pow a lot (Cigs! Me only basically). Well, ended up at 5am for the two days tea-ing session. Nevertheless, step shit on it as well, not gonna mention it, duhz, its so boring for shitting the same topic in my blog. I made a desicion not to post saddy stuff here in order to Respect Ms Blogspot. =D Unless I really need a way to express out, and I think I can still bare the mood now.

I am basically facing a dilemma now, is about whether shall I leave my current job and move to another field or another job. But am sure that might not getting the same pay as of now. But the pay for now doesn't seems equaliant whereby I need to cover lot of tough shit in my jobscope. Colleagues encourage me to go since am still young to fight for a better lifestyle. Yeah, really huh? I seems losing a lot since am working here. No doubt, I get better pay than others, but be frank, it doesn't seen that much after deducting all the credits. Hence, am still didnt get to enjoy any leisure thou.

Reason am urge to leave is I dislike people who love to twist and turn in front of me and make my life more difficult, no motive no target here anymore. Bored thou, facing computer like nobody business and for nothing as well. IS NOTHING. I dislike this kind of lifestyle. Staying blur all the time. Shiatz!

A year plus living in this kind of blur style really get myself fed up. There goes question keep on coming out such as 'Why larh? am born to be Human?' ' Why larh I need to come to this field?' 'WHY LARH?!!'

END. Gimme some time to digest.

p/s: I need someone that can guide me ='(

PJ's Birthdae @ Santini, Tropicana

Happy Birthday to PeeJayyzz!! =D

Coming up next : Derrick's Farewell @ Bangsar Village =)

新。之一日

A Brand New Day.

09. 09. 09

Well, for me
It doesn't mean anything and every year having the same thingy,
for last year, 08 .08. 08

Hence, Nothing Special For Moi.

But Bb wish me 'Good Luck' in the morning Message.
Well, it will be just nice if there's some surprise tagging along. lOl.
Will not happen douz, cos he's an old man, know nothing bout Romanceeei~ lOl.

我,
选择咗喇，
决定放低细，泼出去！
有么办法勒。鬼叫我钟意佢咩。
唔系唔系，应该系话经已‘爱’上咗佢。
就算睇唔到将来，对黎段感情无信心都好，
我都好想用尽全力，去爱锡黎个人。
两年前，我错过一次，唔识得珍惜，所以白白将某人用双手拱送咗俾人。

而黎次，过分敏感，都好可能会毁坏黎段感情。
所以，我要学习锡自己多D，
要开开心心过每一日。
无论我地可唔可能度过漫漫长路，
无论你对我既爱会系短暂或长远，
我，因该俾D信心你。
我，因该俾D自信自己。
我只希望黎段感情换返来既唔会系一场梦，一场恶梦。

p.s : i love you.

Gaga!

Today went for dental filling, kinda numb now, lOl. Was being blur after the filling, and so $$ Flies away, far far away~~ lOl. That's is why am gonna send my children to be dentist! Yea you're right, think is that freaking easy huh. 供死你啊。Haha...

But still have a slight pain douz, Sigh, guess really have to go back to hometown and look for the sifu. He is far more pro than any dentist I met. At least can tahan 4 years! lOl. Wait larh, wait till my mom is back then the planning will do.

Took half day leave today, WOOHOO~ sound farking great right? And guess what? No irritating Phones call, 'Helo Tee,there's some changes in the bla bla bla roadshow.' Fark you. This is what define as LEAVE. lOl. I can even smells the sea, the beach, the sound of Music~~

*Self-Slap* Wake up! Stop crapping. Wookie, serious M O D E.

So, I got back to my *RoOm SweEt rOom* lorh. And it's only 5 plus! WAOOO.. Ok, *Self-Slap* again. I'm Soooo IMPRESSED that I'm home at this hour. Muahahaha.
Though I'm having a numb face, that's technical problem of after dental treatment kay? But infact am kinda in a gaga mood.

佢系我黎度，因为今日佢系我屋企附近做工。

见到佢好侈无以前即个仲欢乐。
一句 - 陌生。

如果系爱佢既就要向前行，将一切抛开。
小姐，你真系好Q得意。你股你神探咩，么到要知到底。你接受到没？

茶实，我自认系几得Q意既咯。哈。
至少我唔想将来知道D会吓死我既耶呱。趁以嘎仲勉强可以放到手，埋gam咯。

我究竟系埋遇到真爱？
佢究竟系埋我个杯茶？
点解佢会有黎仲魅力？
换去以前我一定黎手就pek。

快D醒觉喇。你要既系么耶？！

可能只要有佢一个解释点解唔据实说。
我可能会停止幻想。

犯贱

Nothing pretty much happened recently, as live in kinda 'NO-LIFE' environment now. lOl. Working life seems wasn't my cup of tea. I want to have some Fun in my age of now. Wanna go through with some adventures and criminals. lOl Wanna be in stress-less mode all the time. All will be happen IF IM DAY DREAMING. lOl. Who said it won't happens? Nothing is impossible, impossible is nothing. Urgh. Stop all the crap. 寻晚，留系公司到十点几。无晒人，自己一个见返屋企都无耶做埋留系度写blog咯。 好平静。好喜欢黎D感觉。至之到佢打来。‘ 喂，没返啊？’‘ 没啊，差唔多喇。’（仲要扮到好淡定）。 我唔可以俾佢知我为咗么耶而对佢冷淡。 佢只会觉得我唔信佢。但系我溝唔服自己。虽然系历史，但系。。 黎个历史。。似乎唔属实。。 可能，我惊佢同我溝既都会晤属实呱。 我系女仔度睇到有人落comment ‘豪哥以嘎可以背著豪嫂甘，以后都系会对你甘。’（哈，因为佢好侈陈豪，变咗有此花名吧。好 Q。） 就系黎句呱。 系ngam既咯。溝得无错。 好累啊。日念夜又念，搞到无精神。 放手可能系最好。 一来，佢唔会觉得我好麻烦。 二来，我可以过返D正常生活。 一个字！犯贱 放唔低！又溝唔服自己！ 唔死都无用。

灰 。 毁

家姐，唔想俾你知我唔开心写既耶所以甘日就写广东话！哈。

今日放假，但系。。身在公司！哇！不过，只系做剩下少少既烂摊子。无压力既一日。

寻日，讲到我睇到某人既ｂｌｏｇ，睇到佢写既事物，心好寒。因为佢既遭遇侈曾相识。同我既心情真系好相同。原来。。
系我佬既过去云烟～
我知道有佢既全在，无错既话佢地一齐咗三之四个月吧。

话说，佢地只系玩玩下，因为个女仔仲好细。细过我勒。
但系我睇到既并非与话实说。
一样八年女友既阴影，佢为咗八年既女友流下眼泪。（我真系吓到）

另外，
原来佢地一齐系ＰＤ度过一个晚上。
一齐系云顶倾咗成晚心事。
一齐睇ｅａｓｏｎ演唱会。（之前话同我睇，系想回味亦或系。。哇！唔念勒！但系我真系钟意ｅａｓｏｎ）
一齐唱ｋ。
一切一切我都无同佢经历过。

念返，同佢一齐以来
都好侈无影过相片。
无正示倾过心事。
只有。。
睇戏，饮茶，陪佢睇波（我最恼既），睇佢落波，陪佢坐系屋企。
同埋。。。都好侈无咗。
云顶？有。。　。。。睇佢赌钱咯，跟手就落返来。
哈哈。可笑。。

原来佢唔系无情趣，可能系我无情趣吧。
哈。。　。。。　。。。　。　。。。

好惊。好寒。好乱。
分唔出真与假咗。究竟佢系咩来嘎？？点解唔可以同我讲真话喔。
系同人地认真过既埋老实讲咯。
以嘎俾我睇到埋仲ｈｕｒｔ我。
睇埋你写俾佢既留言。。。　。。。
简直。。囖我命。
一字一句，令我寒上加寒。

心好侈流ｇａｎ血。。　。　。

寻晚，
问咗佢。
但系只系问八年个个。
佢俾既答案永远都有道理。
我唔系唔信，但，我唔想蒙在鼓里。好侈傻婆甘。

我好累。
猜测你猜测到失去自己。
系我念多咗环是系你既一字一句我睇得太重？

人系埋要失去咗先会珍惜？

有时真系觉得自己好犯贱。
跑上跑落。为咗么耶？
连我最唔钟意粘家既都陪住你系屋企。
讨厌睇波既都逼住坐住陪你。
唔钟意静静坐既我以嘎竟然。。斋坐。。
真系无么力咗。
无眼泪咗啦！究竟我有么耶问题？

点解佢可以整成我甘？？！！

Windy MoiZ

Abandoned U quite a time bloggie. So Sorrie. Was being moody recently, no reason. Had a big fight and ended broke off, but now 雨过天晴. Don't know why I'm getting impatient facing him, there goes, INSECURE appears AGAIN.

I admit that I'm a person that lack of Self-confidence, very deeply and serious case. That's why relationship thingy always gives me tough shits. I am always stuck being demotivated, moody and you guys will soon see a vampire and that's me.

A coincidence by clicking into a girl's blog, and knew more of him, her condition is exactly the same with me. And so I started SOTONG = 犹豫 again. It's totally different from what he told me. Bit of scare of being fool again. I know 善意的谎言 is not a bad thing, But I do hope that your feelings towards me is not a lie. Maybe my past relationship is all about EX and it does leave a deep scab in me. Therefore, I am always lack of self-confidence. Started to hate myself for being so 'NO-ME' Dammit. *Slap-self*

*You are my boyfriend and i'm your girlfriend. There's no such thing of match or not match. There's only you love or you don't love. And I ♥ you. * ~

When I decided to post this, and now why Still I can't put my foot down? What is the problem man! For me, relationship seems no longer about lovey dovey thingy yet is related to responsibility and commitment. Shall I go on track or shall I quit? No doubt am happy to be with you. Just like you are the magnet that am sticking on you which it's kinda hard to pull off. But the tiredness is from the bottom of moi's heart. What I want is your HEART, YOUR SOUL, not sweet mouth, not promises. Just like having a man without his heart and soul equals to zero. lOl. What am i talking?

I guess some of you must be wondering why my blog will only talk bout my relationshio thingy, maybe that's what I care the most? Cheer UP!! Don't bring your sour face out later with him, If not will get Royale Fark again. Ahahaha..

Decided to step in Amway line, if not mistaken babe Zoe doing the same decision as mine, so, again We stick back together with Beee Kerrie! Just feel that maybe should step in another pathway. As my life is kinda DULL. Am lazy to go clubs, lazy to hang out, lazy to meet up with human being. Lazy-Wannabe. Sometimes Moi will think, why God gave human being FEELINGS? Maybe we live happier without hard feelings? Isn't be betta? Arghh.. Nonsense!!
Chiowz..