♥ tee' la nouvelle vie ♥

A White Wedding & Moi's Fairy Tale

2010-10-11T16:51:00.012+08:00

10.10.10 is like the greatest day for all the couples i guess. Because they believed that it leads to eternity, everlasting love.

Was invited to boyfriend's schoolmate's wedding. Baby and I doll up for dinner and coincidence as we're both wearing white!

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We're in White ;)

moi

cute baby driving happily.

baby preparing the ang pow~

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Am impressed not only on the date they chose, but the program flow is big slights of difference with the others. Eventually they played the video on how the groom proposed to the bride! Awww, isn't it sweet? I can feel the happiness in her at the moment! She burst into tears of coz! Coz the husband proposed to her in KLCC, FYI, it's shit loads of people there and it's not that easy to pull down a guy's ego and do it in public. Moi SALUTE you! You made us like, miracles will still happened in life. LOL pathetic gile.

It reminds me my fairy tales. who don't? I believe that every gals had their dream marriage, neither do I! Well, it's simply white, in a land of greens, and that's my dream.

Imagine that there's garden surrounded by greens and flowers, a smear sound of water dripping dip by dip, joyful laughter from the kind insects, an environment which like totally get rid from the city! Straight to the point, it's like sound of music. *deep breath*

BTW, I hate restaurant wedding dinner. LOL no offense but it's too old school. Kill me for those uncle & aunties 'ham geng'(singing exotically) on the stage. Gawd! Kill me with that once again. And then, the next will be the 'yam seng' part. It's......SPEECHLESS. Sorry but NO OFFENSE. But it's not my stylo. Bahahar!

For me, I won't even do the presentation of the childhood photos all, SCRAP all. Everyone having the same thing! Then, forever will the groom & the bride is from the same primary school , okay I knew it was done by photoshop okay, there's no such thing as really THAT coincidence for all couples.

Wouldn't it be nice if you share the videos on how your another half propose to you, the steps by steps of choosing the wedding gown and photo shoot etc, so that people can feel your happiness, how sugar lovey dovey you are with your loves one. I feel it great instead of posting those dead presentation, it was like helping the studio to advertise. A BIG NO NO.

I did thought of doing all the touch up and design for all the photo shoot, but I guess it's gonna be a big hoohaa after that, so I guess I will just design the wedding card by myself. In White instead of a red card with red envelope. The outlook of it is all inside my mind =) how sweet am I~

That will be great if my groom will sing a love song with a guitar, but not all guys were into instruments. Besides, a speech of how he's into me, and giving vows to me of will love me and cherish me for the rest of his life is a berry-good thing. Bahahar *self-slap*

I wonder will it happens that my groom's propose plan will be at Paris. LOL!! It's so romantic! When I walk on the streets and suddenly the giant screen on the road shown up 'his' face and ask 'Will You Marry Me Baby?' *Scream!!!!* I will yell out YES for definitely! Muahaha.
Well, it's gonna cost a bomb. Unless I found a millionaire.

Lower cost as in other country? Acceptable geh. LOL! There's an exception, NO FACE TO FACE proposing. It's too lame. Can't show how much is her to him. A gal will definitely give a YES when it touches her heart and proving that you can tear down all your ego just because of her. Or another way to say is, it's hard to say NO in front of public. Gals always think for the guy. Hahar evil me.

There's too many dramatics of proposing and wedding style that I had day dreamed before. But it's ridiculous! As what I said, unless I married a millionaire, it might workout. Hahar! People says that marriage is a MUST for every couple after years of being together. A responsibility. A ceremony. But for moi, Marriage is another stage of the growing, another love stories, another happiness, a different white Christmas. For moi, marriage is to share the joy, tears, excitement to everyone that you know which you found your life partner, your most beloved, and your everything.

This is my White Weds. What's yours then?

xoxo.

New Blogskin cum Lomography

2010-10-06T18:49:00.014+08:00

I knew it's been a while this blog is DEAD.

I knew that this blog is existing STILL.

I knew there are some people click in and out just to see whether there is any sad things happened on me again. (my blog mainly is for my sad stuff, I know! I know! :p but NO MORE for now!)

I KNEW IT.

That's why am here giving U the liquid of wonders *Splashing the liquid on the screen* & U shall ALIVE!

See! There goes the sunflowers growing, the skies are sweet and bluish, a sweet and energetic ladybird laying on the sunflower. Now, people, SMELL it FEEL it.

Hahar!! Okay scrap the shit talk.

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Well, am so into Lomography recently. No, should be for quite long ago I'm into it but..but.... imma felt that its too expensive larh to buy those cameras, no joke! It cost you a bomb for purchasing lomo cameras, you may log in to this website http://www.theclickshop.net/ if you're like me craving for it. But baby bought me instant camera which is SO CUTE the size and its in White! I just love it so much. Appreciate it, baby *smooches*.

I name it as 'Fattie', coz it's round!

This is the first photo given birth by Fattie, isn't it cute!? Oh, we took this in car after he bought it. ILY baby.

These are others that we took in Genting. I'm so pale here for having a bad toothache =(

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Last week, I spend approximately 600 in a second, YES just in a sec! Thanks to Keez Lee for tempting me to get a new lomo 'Digital Harinezumi 2' and also a color lens. Urgh! It's like thousand of elephant stepping on my heart until its burst! But luckily baby sponsor me half of it =) bahahar! The story is, we collect the lomo together and am not with too much of cash with me and he pay for it AND end up he said he pay half for wanna be part of the owner *evil grins* my heart feel better now!

Meet my 'Nightmare'

Because its black that's why the name.....Sucks! But I likeyy!! Don't care. It's VERY SMALL, and the beauty of it is it's come with the feature of digital. Save up a lot man! You can save up a lot on films and so for the printing. That's why, It's still consider worth for me.

Some of the Pics from Nightmare.

Opps! Ignore him, he's ze manager of mine. I love the smokes effects.

hehhe, a close up on my inbox, a sweet text from baby boy.

It's great to capture everywhere instead of self camwhoring. Because it's looks dumb fark when people saw you carrying the camera and say cheese to ourselves. Hahar! Coz moi tried loads of time and it's real dumb fark. Hahar!

Will post about my Bangkok trip soon lovelies! Kap Kap =)

xoxo

She's Back to the Mainland

2010-08-04T14:08:00.020+08:00

Back!! Moi is BACK. How are you been through? What are you doing lately? What you up to recently? How is your relationship been through? Are you dead? etc etc...

Imma still very-the-healthy, very-the-happy, and most important is I haven't meet Michael Jackson yet. Am just being too lullaby~ too Lems-wannabe. (FYI, Lems=Lembap) lOl!

Moi been through tons of adventures, tons of happiness, tons of sadness, but these are the thing that made me to be a better one. Agree? At least, I learned to Wurve myself, good start biatches!

Wanted to update about my Penang Trip during Chinese New Year, but lazyness conquer moi as usual hence ta-daaa my blog seem greening with Spider-web, Dusts and Mushrooms. Rumbe Sorry peeps! For being 'Disappearrrr' for quite some time. Maybe Twitter is the only thing I've been updating contentiously, shy to say that even my Facebook was shining to the pathway of being dead. It's only one reason which cause all these happened. Opps, Sorry not about relationship nor Work but is Health. *Clear Throats* What's so curious about? Moi is 23 this year and she started to pamper herself like a 'bwincess'. So that she looks good instead of taking care herself after found out that wrinkles and sickness ruin her sweet 20th.

*Proudly*

Yeah, I've been abnormal as moi will go to bed before a.m or latest at 1 a.m. It makes a big differences! In sense of I feel fresh for the next day and I can concentrate much on my work and of course, the cheapest skin care will do. The other differences will be am losing weight gila-ly for no reason. I eat, I drink, I sleep, Imagine am 168cm Height and I'm only 44kg now. WTH? I'm born without a sexy body-figure and it seems like a Telur Goreng-wannabe now. Ish! I agreed losing weight does affects the boops kay. I'm just being too over normal but doctor said it mainly is because my body started to be unfriendly and ignore with my consuming vitamins, so people, do take care of yourself before all these happens. I have to consume loads of medication and still I feel Farked up with my gastric problem. Gastric pain~ You are so Lucifer-wannabe! FML.

Thank God that am still young, I just need to pamper myself and built up more on my body immune and there will be a day of kicking Lucifer's ass. lOl. It works cause gaining a bitsy of weight after consuming the herbal thingy.

Relationship? Good. lOl. It doesn't affects moi much. $___$ will do! ahha! He's been a good boy so basically it's just doing good. Looking forward for 26th August! Our trip to the land am craving for long like a food. I want, want and want.

Share some updates Pics here while waiting for the next post topic by topic =D

Moi doll up for Club

Early Bird in office

Camwhore while waiting the precious one

Moi at Work

When the ladies goes wrong

The Sitao Poh Kuek Kuek

We drink together quite some time

Kerrie Beeee with NEAT Hair =P

My Wurve

Penang Lullaby

The Gang *loves*

The Disgust ones!

The Lurve ones

Will update often. Lurves.

♡ Hapweee 1st Anniversary ♡

2010-04-23T01:07:00.009+08:00

A short glimpse and its written 1 Year 5 Days on top of my blog's banner.

I couldn't believe that we can last for a year. All I had in my mind all the time is as end of the day, we're not meant to be together.

Somehow, we did it.

We know each other for quite some time, from strangers to 'not-so-close' friend.

Time after time, we are closer friends from a normal friends.

We started to hang out in a gang whereby I found cozy and warm to be with you guys.

We started to boil our phones until porridge-wannabe.

We shared a lot, laugh a lot, and of course,

Waiting your phone calls became my daily routine.

I still remember the day when you eventually sit with me until 7 in the morning just to wait me to get my work done.

I still remember how much I had laugh that night until I cant hold my breathe.

I still remember how you shared with me about your old memoirs and stories.

I still remember how you finished your half-boiled egg by using a glass.

I still remember the way you talk to me, and how you stare at me by using your talking eyes.

Theres a lot of memories about you and me.

We're like strangers at first thou we're already a couple.

We argued a lot due to some silly issues.

We don't have faith on each other.

In short, we don't even act like a couple does.

Time flies, from arguments we know each other deeply.

You started to be patient and understand what I want.

You started to cherish me as you never did.

Days by days, You does melt me with your changes.

words for You my B,

Sometimes I'm being unreasonable and bitchy is because I do care about You.

I'm being sensitive because I'm afraid to lose you.

I'm acting 'I don't care' is just to attract your attention but doesn't really shows that I don't love you.

I might neglect you sometimes but not because that I purposely ignore nor reject you.

You, brought me lotsa laughter.

You, brought me lotsa tears.

You, brought me lotsa fear.

But, You brought me to a world whereby I learned to be more mature.

I ♡ You for giving your heart to me

and trusting me with your pride

I ♡ You for wanting me

and needing me by your side

I ♡ You for the emotions

I never knew I had

I ♡ You for your thoughts of me

where I'm always on your mind

I ♡ You for finding that part of me

that I never thought I'd find

I ♡ You for the way you are

and for how you make me feel

But most of all I ♡ You

'cuz I know you're mine for real

It's ain't easy for both different characters to get along.

Sometimes there will be an urge on me to shout ' I wanna leave you' when my blood is boiling up to my head.

But I know all these is part and parcel a couple will go through.

Your Heart is my Home

Warm, cozy and nice

It's the only place I wurve to be in

Morning, Noon and Night.

I Wurve You.

Happy Anniversary my Lurve.

Mushy Mushy~

2010-04-06T18:09:00.002+08:00

My blog seems growing mushrooms. lOl!!

Gonna update as soon as possible ;)

Girls.

2010-03-12T05:25:00.002+08:00

Its 5:43:26 AM, and a silly girl is still awake. lOl, yeah obviously that's ME.

Nothing pretty much to do at this hour so Moi decided to BLOG-GEDD.

It's my favorite month around the corner, yeap yeap! It's ze Princess Ji's birthday. Is not really that exciting actually. Guess it won't be a fairytale night as I used to imagine, so, just let it be =). Another reason will be, am trying to ignore my age? Am getting older and older!

There's the same old moody-emo-queen mingle inside of moi, lOl, don't laugh at me as am trying to be a better one okay! But it just couldn't be Succeed. Owhh, what a sad case. It's alright, I just have to accept the so called Myself.

Just got back freshly from ze Chinese New Year trip, Penang, with my loves one. Crazy journey with 3 babes and 1 pimp =P. Theres about 300 plus of picture been taken, it's just so freaking nuts! Will gonna share the trip in here when ze MOOD is there. lOl!

Else updates? Yeap, my class started this month.

Ain't that Fun as I thought. But, at least am learning something and I can get a better offer and more opportunity as well. Why not right? Since it's just so-no-harm at all.

Night job? Long story to go, just share some funny stuff here then.

Am wondering Why Mixed-Girl dislike me. WHY?

I mean those girls that alike with me, somehow they are Chindian or what ever Eurasian,

THEY JUST DISLIKE moi.

There's a girl working together with me (I don't even know who the hell is her) shows that she's effing HATES me. Her body-language tells every single thing. It's so annoying that she tried to talk bad bout me in front of the others. She even tag along her bestie to Ignore me!

WHAT THE HECK WOMAN!

Here goes the reason, one of my regular customer, or I should say a good friend of moi (Kinda close with me, as we shared quite a lot) is her EX. *Bop...*

Is so BITCH. We're just friends that can share a lot, but she treated me as her enemy. "Girls sometimes can be so evil due to envies and selfishness" and it's so true. In other words for you girl, you're so naive. He's no longer your boy, what the hell are you envy-ing? Somehow he just treated me as a normal friend. OMG. *Slap Slap* You're too sensitive!!

Next!

This incidence recalls me another mixed-girl as well, she hates me just because I am close to her bestie Well we name her bestie as 'Ms C'. Okay, it's not my fault. I didn't snatch Ms C from you. It's just because of your jealousy and naive thoughts. Sad is, Ms C did obviously avoid and getting far from me due to part of this.

Am actually kinda heartache, but I respect Ms C. =) No point letting her to stuck in the middle.

But eventually you go and simply gossip and talk bad me in front of a love bird that am having affair with ze BF, YOU,

Yes YOU, ruin a couple's relationship. I knew it after a long period when I know the love bird been separated. You annoyed me. I felt bad to ze BF when he called me up and told me the whole incidence.

I've told myself that, I can't accept You and of course you are not worth to be a friend. Not even be a normal friend of mine.

I know am kinda action for those who doesn't knows me well, try not to judge me before knowing me. If you don't accept me, Just effing get a life of your own, and stop barking like a nuts!

WHY PEOPLE CAN BE SO STUPID? May God bless them.

Was using my boy's spare phone as my Strawberry is outta battery. Sony Ericsson, you know, when you text someone, and send it, there's a list of the previous numbers to choose. There's a very familiar phone number I saw (I did not intent to memorize, which I really don't, but ze number is just too easy to recognize).

Curiosity, you can't blame me.

I browse thru his phonebook. And BINGO, Her name is disappear. There's few possibilities.

First - He's trying to be Smart-ass, whereby I wouldn't know who is the owner of ze number and so he can text or call anytime he wants and not afraid that the bitch (me) will notice it. (It's so stupid, but it's better than my Ex did, which my Ex eventually just change the name of ze girl in short form.)

Second - As what he said, He don't want to keep his PAST TENSE. (Okay, acceptable maybe? But why is the phone number appears? If you wouldn't wanna keep the PAST TENSE with you, there will be no such number appearing anymore in your life, agree? Just like I still kept my EX phone number and of course in his real name as well, AND sometimes I'm actually forgot he's still existing if I didnt really browse thru my phonebook. lOl.)

Hmm, I didnt asked for any explanations until I used his current phone Blackberry Bold to called up my agent, and I saw ze 'Familiar' phone number exist AGAIN.

While we're chatting and bugging nonsense at night, in a sudden, I came out a question for him.

'B, Why you deleted her phone number?'

He told me the first reason stated above. Which is the past tense thingy, and I 'ZA' him back with ze second reason. And he said 'You girls, delete Kena, not delete Kena again, what larrrhhh'. lOl, you can't blame, girls is the most complicated creature, they think beyond than guys did.

And he came out with a lot things that he actually intent not to let moi knows about it.

Which is : the girl will still call him.

The girl is actually giving him signal to court her back as she's back to single.

The girl called and requested to throw a visit during chinese new year, and he rejected with the reason because am with him.

Okay Girl,

you're not blind or deaf. You should know that he's attached, but why are you doing all this nonsense? Maybe you're no longer young, and you need a stable guy, to settle down, yeap, he drove big car now and earn more than before BUT you're the one who give up the relationship, you're the one who choose to fish for rich guy and you barely tried your best to get untag from him, and now you are back for him after trying different relationships.

IT'S JUST SO UNFAIR TO HIM.

I can't comment much, cause I knew it from one side, maybe it's not real? who knows? Cause 'Guys is always the best actor in the world'. Am not really care, just that I felt terrified with ze Girls nowadays, it disgust me.

Girls are so evil when they intent to reach something, they will use all sort of method in order to succeed. Thou am a girl, but still I would like to said

FARKIUUUU girls.

Jingle Bells!

2010-02-06T21:57:00.006+08:00

Jingle bells Jingle Bells Jingle Hell Yeah!

Kissaten, located in Jaya One, Petaling Jaya.

Hell yeah! My Jingle Bells Day spend in this particular restaurant which really had a warm environment thou. Moi with her valentines!

Isn't it looks good? The weird Pizza I had ever seen in my life, which is with a cold egg on top, name as '温泉蛋'. Japanese stylo perhaps.

Salted pork Spagetti, yummy aha, but Moi doesn't really rate for this as the pork is so flabby.

Seafood Spaghetti

Moi's meal of the night Salmon Spaghetti. I wurve grill Salmon! Rated 5 stars!

Tadaaaa! My valentines! lOl, my gosh am so lucky thou.

Well, they're my heroes only larh, I don't really attracts so many bees in fact! lOl!

My babes Beee Kerry & Bi Yin

The Disturbia, he's a nagger! Trust me.

The sweethearts whereby 24/7 stays close to my Heart.

I Wurve Them.

Must be thinking why am not spending with my real valentines, he's working on the Christmas day, but it's alright and we did spend great time during the eve at Genting. Will share bout my new year eve up next =)

xoxo,

Continuing of my year 2009

2010-02-06T20:33:00.014+08:00

It's just so effing 'Bad Luck' in my year of 2010.

A word to squeeze out my feelings : Kanasai!

Well, am gonna share out one by one later as I'm gonna blog about my end year of 2009 =)

Jingle Bells Everyone!

Yeah, it's kinda late, okay berry-the-late then, at least I do greet you okay. lOl!

Spend my white christmas in a different way last year, as not celebrating with my babes and heroes, not with my family, but with a bunch of old man =p okay, MATURE man may sounds better isn't?

Terms and Condition for candidates to join us at Genting Gohtong Jaya is simply as simple which is to bring a pressie which cost only twenty bucks. Isn't it easy? See! Above is the pressie which being well prepared by those matured one =p

Reached there early and chill out with those creeps. lOl

Junks food and Junk talk before going out for dinner.

Exchanged those precious pressie, laugh like a dutch until rolling on the floors, tummy aching, vulgar words flowing all around the premise. It's Fun actually because it's surrounded by laughter and it's sort of warm indeed.

There goes, Keson and his beloved Erica, Bee and Tara, Mr Sam laugh 6 7 and his girl Michelle, Mr Lang Mun, Keez the Naiz, Hung the tweety, How Qin the de-sign-a, bb & I.

After the war of laughing and teasing, all decided to get ourselves a warm drink at Starbucks up the hills(end up all ordering the cold one as they said : it's Chigek to drink cold drink in such cold weather) Damn it's really cold! Especially those clever ones who wore dress, you wouldn't imagine the cold winds flew into the skirt from the bottom and squeeze out on top. My oh my!

Gossiping always kills the gaps between the male and the female. Don't you agree?

Yeap, my dream watch. Titus in old school. Exception from exchanging presents, got this from the special one, surprisingly =) Heart it.

There goes I spend my christmas eve with the peeps.

xoxo,

me.

What MoiZ Up to Recently

2010-01-17T16:12:00.010+08:00

Yeo Yeo! Am back to this bored blogspot, teeheee! Am kinda busy recently, busy working at night, busy meeting up with the freelance boss, busy doing billion and trillions of changes of the current webpage, it's so Sucka!..

Well, perhaps it's just similar with my previous life, as working 24/7 and no personal spare time to meet up with my babes and heroes for some GAGA craziee muggle stuffiez. Hmmm, but then when I do have the time yet am still prefer to stick my effing old butts at home. Yeah, no doubt am getting old already. I love being alone laying on my spongy bed, hugging my smelly pillows and feel the tenderness of being covered by my big comforter, mmmmm it's just so so SOooo Comfortable~ lOl!

Am kinda frust in sense of relationship thingy, yeah, we have been in a lovey-dovey period for quite some time, but recently I guess its all faded away again. lOl. Maybe is my problem as I don't know how to be a girl friend or shall I said, am being fed up of struggling in any relationship. I love being care, but not being tease. Ergh, let it be, That's my conclusion. Guess only I myself know what I really want, and I should spend more time and effort in my career than tying up a relationship which doesn't belongs to me (supposedly). Doesn't mean I don't care or love anymore, but just sometimes things happened, it's kinda hard to rewind it back. There'll only a sharp torn in the heart and couldn't be wipe nor pull it out. What I can do is let go rather than waiting for an unseen-able last episode. Thus, there's no such word as everlasting love okay. Love me or hate me, I don't farking care anymore.

Am gonna change myself rather than expecting people or environment surrounding me to be different. Will have my business this year onwards, will train myself to be a better one, to be knowledgeable, to be multitasking, and lastly, am gonna assure that people who let go me will be regret. Am being sarcastic, hell yeah, SO? Am gonna be a perfectionist! Watchout. Roarrr!

Lastly,

Happie Birthday to my dearest bro, Terry COCK!

Luv,

MoiZ

Bye 09, Wuhaa 10!!

2010-01-03T01:50:00.010+08:00

Wow!! My oh my~ I've abandoned you for such a long time, miss me? ;)
Been very very lazy to blog, that's why bloggie seems like growing mushrooms. lOl.

I couldn't believe we are now in year 2010~
Tata to 09 and Bonjour 10!

Been through a lot in year 2009,

I've learned to be more independent: as my mom is not with me for 9 months, hell yeah you guys must be thinking it must be great, but be frank, it does! lOl. Just sometimes is a bit -- Loneleyy?

I've made a effing great decision: whereby I left MLR, yeah! You know, the so called Hell which I mention in the previous post. At last, I could smell the sea, and listen to the sound of music~lalala

I've made up my mind to continue study: whereby am gonna start my course, yeap! Website design and also Autocad. Am currently doing freelance web page designing, the next step will be doing the programming. Huhaa~ I am kinda in a Gaga mood! Cause I'm training myself to be multitasking.

I've grown up:　A lot!! Yeah, in terms of managing my financial, oh babeh, you wouldn't wanna believe that moi now is so stingy and technically she's bearing heartache once she intend to withdraw cash. lOl. No longer :'Money jiek ma, use first, later only plan'.

I've plan for my future: Yeap, in sense of? Ah hah, I bought Saving Insurance, moi know herself too well where she is the kind of person that 'treat the Sky as blanket if the skies fell down'. But now, she know being independent is much more safe than depend on man. Yea right, in sense of financial independent, so called Self-support.

I've learned to be hardworking: I used to be a very 'guai-lan' human being. Why? I like to...nah I Love to delay my work till last minute or in other words, my effing 'lansi' brain won't function until the dateline is near. It's not a good thing thou. Yes, sometimes the final work seems great but am sure that IF moi will wanna spend more effort and treasure time as gold, it will be even better. Or should said, it might be Purrrfect! Who knows?!

I've left Him & Her: Him and Her that let moi knows How ugly humanities can be. Yes, I learned lesson of it. And realize that sometimes we cant be too nice. No one will appreciate, maybe not everyone knows the spelling of it? lOl

I've a Bunch of great friends: I lost some of my friends, but thank God I met new friends, and remain the best buds I had. Peeps, Thou I didn't really spent time with you guys, but~ You're always on my mind~ you're always on my mind~lalala suddenly an old song pops out. *qings*

I've met my cup of tea: ? A question mark will do. He's an incredible creature, hard to predict, you will never know what the hell is in his mind, guess he doesn't really know himself well too. lOl. Just a glimpse, we've been together for 8 months plus, time faded too fast, which I couldn't believe!!! We've been together for so long~ WOW. Good or bad? Let's checked it out on the coming post =)

I've decided to get Macbook: Yea. and it is! ahhhaaah! Rumbe thanks to my lovely siblings who sponsor moi. XOXO

I've out of my mind: lOl, what else larh? overload dah, will update IF I know what to write or IF am not Lazy. yeah, you know that! Laziness do Conquer Moiz~ wuahahaha.

ChiowZ.
o!ooooH!! and lastly...

with my love and loves and lurvessss

Happy belated New Year, and May God bless everyone of us. Tender & Cares always showering us all the time. Amen!

tata! xoxo

Time flies like Arrow ------>>

2009-10-02T13:55:00.004+08:00

Addicted to Norah Jones's songs recently. There's a feeling of softy nerdy feel when am listening to her voice. It's just melted me with the soul of the songs. I can even feel the wind blow on my face. Xoxo.

Didnt have any plans recently as of am still staying at the same place - h e l l, owh, I mean my job. Lol, too long for the working hours, and moi didnt really enjoy much outing. Most recent outing will be tea-ing session with my peeps at mamak and we do cockz a lot, pow a lot (Cigs! Me only basically). Well, ended up at 5am for the two days tea-ing session. Nevertheless, step shit on it as well, not gonna mention it, duhz, its so boring for shitting the same topic in my blog. I made a desicion not to post saddy stuff here in order to Respect Ms Blogspot. =D Unless I really need a way to express out, and I think I can still bare the mood now.

I am basically facing a dilemma now, is about whether shall I leave my current job and move to another field or another job. But am sure that might not getting the same pay as of now. But the pay for now doesn't seems equaliant whereby I need to cover lot of tough shit in my jobscope. Colleagues encourage me to go since am still young to fight for a better lifestyle. Yeah, really huh? I seems losing a lot since am working here. No doubt, I get better pay than others, but be frank, it doesn't seen that much after deducting all the credits. Hence, am still didnt get to enjoy any leisure thou.

Reason am urge to leave is I dislike people who love to twist and turn in front of me and make my life more difficult, no motive no target here anymore. Bored thou, facing computer like nobody business and for nothing as well. IS NOTHING. I dislike this kind of lifestyle. Staying blur all the time. Shiatz!

A year plus living in this kind of blur style really get myself fed up. There goes question keep on coming out such as 'Why larh? am born to be Human?' ' Why larh I need to come to this field?' 'WHY LARH?!!'

END. Gimme some time to digest.

p/s: I need someone that can guide me ='(

PJ's Birthdae @ Santini, Tropicana

2009-09-20T23:12:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday to PeeJayyzz!! =D

Coming up next : Derrick's Farewell @ Bangsar Village =)

新。之一日

2009-09-09T10:56:00.003+08:00

A Brand New Day.

09. 09. 09

Well, for me
It doesn't mean anything and every year having the same thingy,
for last year, 08 .08. 08

Hence, Nothing Special For Moi.

But Bb wish me 'Good Luck' in the morning Message.
Well, it will be just nice if there's some surprise tagging along. lOl.
Will not happen douz, cos he's an old man, know nothing bout Romanceeei~ lOl.

我,
选择咗喇，
决定放低细，泼出去！
有么办法勒。鬼叫我钟意佢咩。
唔系唔系，应该系话经已‘爱’上咗佢。
就算睇唔到将来，对黎段感情无信心都好，
我都好想用尽全力，去爱锡黎个人。
两年前，我错过一次，唔识得珍惜，所以白白将某人用双手拱送咗俾人。

而黎次，过分敏感，都好可能会毁坏黎段感情。
所以，我要学习锡自己多D，
要开开心心过每一日。
无论我地可唔可能度过漫漫长路，
无论你对我既爱会系短暂或长远，
我，因该俾D信心你。
我，因该俾D自信自己。
我只希望黎段感情换返来既唔会系一场梦，一场恶梦。

p.s : i love you.

Gaga!

2009-09-08T19:49:00.003+08:00

Today went for dental filling, kinda numb now, lOl. Was being blur after the filling, and so $$ Flies away, far far away~~ lOl. That's is why am gonna send my children to be dentist! Yea you're right, think is that freaking easy huh. 供死你啊。Haha...

But still have a slight pain douz, Sigh, guess really have to go back to hometown and look for the sifu. He is far more pro than any dentist I met. At least can tahan 4 years! lOl. Wait larh, wait till my mom is back then the planning will do.

Took half day leave today, WOOHOO~ sound farking great right? And guess what? No irritating Phones call, 'Helo Tee,there's some changes in the bla bla bla roadshow.' Fark you. This is what define as LEAVE. lOl. I can even smells the sea, the beach, the sound of Music~~

*Self-Slap* Wake up! Stop crapping. Wookie, serious M O D E.

So, I got back to my *RoOm SweEt rOom* lorh. And it's only 5 plus! WAOOO.. Ok, *Self-Slap* again. I'm Soooo IMPRESSED that I'm home at this hour. Muahahaha.
Though I'm having a numb face, that's technical problem of after dental treatment kay? But infact am kinda in a gaga mood.

佢系我黎度，因为今日佢系我屋企附近做工。

见到佢好侈无以前即个仲欢乐。
一句 - 陌生。

如果系爱佢既就要向前行，将一切抛开。
小姐，你真系好Q得意。你股你神探咩，么到要知到底。你接受到没？

茶实，我自认系几得Q意既咯。哈。
至少我唔想将来知道D会吓死我既耶呱。趁以嘎仲勉强可以放到手，埋gam咯。

我究竟系埋遇到真爱？
佢究竟系埋我个杯茶？
点解佢会有黎仲魅力？
换去以前我一定黎手就pek。

快D醒觉喇。你要既系么耶？！

可能只要有佢一个解释点解唔据实说。
我可能会停止幻想。

犯贱

2009-09-08T11:15:00.005+08:00

Nothing pretty much happened recently, as live in kinda 'NO-LIFE' environment now. lOl. Working life seems wasn't my cup of tea. I want to have some Fun in my age of now. Wanna go through with some adventures and criminals. lOl Wanna be in stress-less mode all the time. All will be happen IF IM DAY DREAMING. lOl. Who said it won't happens? Nothing is impossible, impossible is nothing. Urgh. Stop all the crap. 寻晚，留系公司到十点几。无晒人，自己一个见返屋企都无耶做埋留系度写blog咯。好平静。好喜欢黎D感觉。至之到佢打来。‘ 喂，没返啊？’‘ 没啊，差唔多喇。’（仲要扮到好淡定）。我唔可以俾佢知我为咗么耶而对佢冷淡。佢只会觉得我唔信佢。但系我溝唔服自己。虽然系历史，但系。。黎个历史。。似乎唔属实。。可能，我惊佢同我溝既都会晤属实呱。我系女仔度睇到有人落comment ‘豪哥以嘎可以背著豪嫂甘，以后都系会对你甘。’（哈，因为佢好侈陈豪，变咗有此花名吧。好 Q。）就系黎句呱。系ngam既咯。溝得无错。好累啊。日念夜又念，搞到无精神。放手可能系最好。一来，佢唔会觉得我好麻烦。二来，我可以过返D正常生活。一个字！犯贱放唔低！又溝唔服自己！唔死都无用。

灰　。　毁

2009-09-07T20:06:00.004+08:00

家姐，唔想俾你知我唔开心写既耶所以甘日就写广东话！哈。

今日放假，但系。。身在公司！哇！不过，只系做剩下少少既烂摊子。无压力既一日。

寻日，讲到我睇到某人既ｂｌｏｇ，睇到佢写既事物，心好寒。因为佢既遭遇侈曾相识。同我既心情真系好相同。原来。。
系我佬既过去云烟～
我知道有佢既全在，无错既话佢地一齐咗三之四个月吧。

话说，佢地只系玩玩下，因为个女仔仲好细。细过我勒。
但系我睇到既并非与话实说。
一样八年女友既阴影，佢为咗八年既女友流下眼泪。（我真系吓到）

另外，
原来佢地一齐系ＰＤ度过一个晚上。
一齐系云顶倾咗成晚心事。
一齐睇ｅａｓｏｎ演唱会。（之前话同我睇，系想回味亦或系。。哇！唔念勒！但系我真系钟意ｅａｓｏｎ）
一齐唱ｋ。
一切一切我都无同佢经历过。

念返，同佢一齐以来
都好侈无影过相片。
无正示倾过心事。
只有。。
睇戏，饮茶，陪佢睇波（我最恼既），睇佢落波，陪佢坐系屋企。
同埋。。。都好侈无咗。
云顶？有。。　。。。睇佢赌钱咯，跟手就落返来。
哈哈。可笑。。

原来佢唔系无情趣，可能系我无情趣吧。
哈。。　。。。　。。。　。　。。。

好惊。好寒。好乱。
分唔出真与假咗。究竟佢系咩来嘎？？点解唔可以同我讲真话喔。
系同人地认真过既埋老实讲咯。
以嘎俾我睇到埋仲ｈｕｒｔ我。
睇埋你写俾佢既留言。。。　。。。
简直。。囖我命。
一字一句，令我寒上加寒。

心好侈流ｇａｎ血。。　。　。

寻晚，
问咗佢。
但系只系问八年个个。
佢俾既答案永远都有道理。
我唔系唔信，但，我唔想蒙在鼓里。好侈傻婆甘。

我好累。
猜测你猜测到失去自己。
系我念多咗环是系你既一字一句我睇得太重？

人系埋要失去咗先会珍惜？

有时真系觉得自己好犯贱。
跑上跑落。为咗么耶？
连我最唔钟意粘家既都陪住你系屋企。
讨厌睇波既都逼住坐住陪你。
唔钟意静静坐既我以嘎竟然。。斋坐。。
真系无么力咗。
无眼泪咗啦！究竟我有么耶问题？

点解佢可以整成我甘？？！！

Windy MoiZ

2009-09-06T16:54:00.003+08:00

Abandoned U quite a time bloggie. So Sorrie. Was being moody recently, no reason. Had a big fight and ended broke off, but now 雨过天晴. Don't know why I'm getting impatient facing him, there goes, INSECURE appears AGAIN.

I admit that I'm a person that lack of Self-confidence, very deeply and serious case. That's why relationship thingy always gives me tough shits. I am always stuck being demotivated, moody and you guys will soon see a vampire and that's me.

A coincidence by clicking into a girl's blog, and knew more of him, her condition is exactly the same with me. And so I started SOTONG = 犹豫 again. It's totally different from what he told me. Bit of scare of being fool again. I know 善意的谎言 is not a bad thing, But I do hope that your feelings towards me is not a lie. Maybe my past relationship is all about EX and it does leave a deep scab in me. Therefore, I am always lack of self-confidence. Started to hate myself for being so 'NO-ME' Dammit. *Slap-self*

You are my boyfriend and i'm your girlfriend. There's no such thing of match or not match. There's only you love or you don't love. And I ♥ you. ~

When I decided to post this, and now why Still I can't put my foot down? What is the problem man! For me, relationship seems no longer about lovey dovey thingy yet is related to responsibility and commitment. Shall I go on track or shall I quit? No doubt am happy to be with you. Just like you are the magnet that am sticking on you which it's kinda hard to pull off. But the tiredness is from the bottom of moi's heart. What I want is your HEART, YOUR SOUL, not sweet mouth, not promises. Just like having a man without his heart and soul equals to zero. lOl. What am i talking?

I guess some of you must be wondering why my blog will only talk bout my relationshio thingy, maybe that's what I care the most? Cheer UP!! Don't bring your sour face out later with him, If not will get Royale Fark again. Ahahaha..

Decided to step in Amway line, if not mistaken babe Zoe doing the same decision as mine, so, again We stick back together with Beee Kerrie! Just feel that maybe should step in another pathway. As my life is kinda DULL. Am lazy to go clubs, lazy to hang out, lazy to meet up with human being. Lazy-Wannabe. Sometimes Moi will think, why God gave human being FEELINGS? Maybe we live happier without hard feelings? Isn't be betta? Arghh.. Nonsense!!
Chiowz..

Lalalalala ♪ ♫ ♪ ♪ ♫ ♪ ♪

2009-09-02T17:10:00.007+08:00

Sing K with muah beloved Babes and a Beast. lOl

An unforgettable night and exhausted gao gao!

Cos we sang from 11 pm until 4am. OMFG.

Heart Them

Chiowz~

同你一儕的日子♥

2009-08-25T11:56:00.009+08:00

突然好挂住华语，哈哈。所以决定用华语写~=）

一扎眼，四个月咗！好开心，渐渐地，我俩开始依赖对方咗吧。。几乎每日佢都与我同在，系我身边，虽然有时真系俾佢气死，但系。。我是几享受既。。佢既无理取闹，显示咗他对我有几着紧。总系觉得佢前女友既影子常在，虽然，佢同我讲得好清楚佢地既关系，解释得通透，我依然无信心。或者，我缺乏自信吧。。大佬，佢地一齐8年喔！大喇喇8年啊。。鬼都担心啦系埋啊。。

不过，本小姐EQ高，控制情绪一流。。哈哈！无将心内既感受泄露。。定点来嘛，全部都系以往既教训。。哈哈。精咗啊嘛。。=P

好享受以嘎既生活。可能有你未必唔系好事。反而带俾我喜，愁，欢，乐。

♪♫♪♪ 四个月0一个礼拜 ♪♫♪♪

我会珍惜同你一儕既日子。♥

Sick Weekends~

2009-08-10T18:41:00.007+08:00

An ordinary weekends i had, bit sick still, sigh.. It's about one week plus the sick keep tagging me, H1N1? Guess not. lOl. Won't die so easily marh~hoho

Spending a week plus with bb as he's sick and he really suspected as H1N1, accompanied him for blood test in Denggi as well, luckily~ He's safe. I had a feeling of beh tahan myself as in being a nagger each four hours for reminding him consume his medicine, drink water, this and that. Argh! Macam ah ma~

After when the big baby recovered, my turn larh.. lOl! His turn to bring me to clinic and nag me for this and that =.= Wahhhh~ worst than me, coz the way he nag is somekind of SCOLD, you know, this kind of service nowadays......mm dim lorh. End up, bb's mom caught flu as well. So? Sumua virus.. lOl!

Went house warming at ah Gor place, kinda heart the interior of the house, feel so warm. No doubt, ah sou really can officially be ah sou as she busy serve us with food and drinks. Hee thanks to your hospitallity =)

After the meal, Moi was feeling unwell, started headache and bla bla bla, there goes her face looks shitty again. Peeps was thinking maybe bb's fault again coz he poker-ing AGAIN and leave moi sitting there. But, I don't really cares, coz am really feel shitty at the moment.

!@#$%^&*()... Bb make noise on the way home. He burst out of patient as Moi didn't answer to what he asked =P What to do? No mood for frustrating of the sickness and the monthly cramp marh ='(

Had a big fight as he accusing moi, as he assume that moi is not willing to follow him. Duhhzz... Hard to fook si this old man =.= End up moi burst out all the things that kept in her heart for so long. Bb was so shock and he hug moi tight and keep on .... sorry-ing lorh...

Often act that, MUST die Die make till moi cried only he stop mumbling. Maybe he enjoy the victory by seeing the lady crying and yelling at him. Idiot him. And so he suggest to bring moi to Genting, but end up we joined Hung and peeps at Red Box.. lOl... We spend a stress-less weekends again.. walk around, eat around, movie, talk cock, fighting-wrestling, vulgar-ing, lOl.. He's a BIG BABE thou he's actually six year older than me. After the night we fight, bb seems started to understand what am thinking, at last he knows SHE HAVE FEELINGS. Keep silent doesn't mean she don't have her own thought, don't have feelings.

At home, Nothing to do so camwhore with Beh Beh~ Bb's son and also me and Bb?? Nah.. am not interested to take photo with the old man, lOl, just capture his tatts =P

bb's Hand Tattoo

Beh Beh The most lanci dog i had ever seen, same like his dad.
not kidding, it bites if he donno you or u touch his head.
(edit with mua cam, lOl its ugly, I knew)

Naiz been unhappy recently, sorry for not be with you, but am the last one that knew something bad happened to you. Too bad, now share with Big sis then left me aside pulak. lOl, but i knew you will stand up very soon. Time needed to cure your inner part ler. Naiz, if you feel to pour out, Please do. Don't keep!! Alwiz there for ya =)

Zoe Honn 22nd Birthday Bash

2009-08-10T18:15:00.004+08:00

Here Goes to our Ms Zoe de Cheng's 22nd Birthday Bash @ 7atenine. Had lotsa fun, didnt camwhore alot with you babe, you're too busy entertaining, but nevermind, we should go out again for ladies day some day =*)

Babeyyzz =)

The Notty Derrik & Moi

Bro & Moi

=) 7atenine~

Met Brendan and Prem? forgotten their names =P

Here goes, a big Muahhhz for my babe Zoe.

Happie Birthday my lurve,
Thank God that I met you,
You brightens my life,
Fills my life with colors,
With you by my side,
Had groom me a lot,
You always be the guider
You guide me to the light,
With you, I will not be lonely,
With you, My life is full of laughter,

Babe,
You're forever my lurve ones,
Happy Birthday to you once again~

What a Day

2009-07-28T16:43:00.011+08:00

Hello dudess!! arghhh lazy to blog still. lOl. Was free now cause all the work been submitted and pending still, so am kinda 'fai cai' now sitting in office doing nothing. lOl. Disturbing mua colleagues. Sigh, betta update sikit kan good?lOl

Lets introduce to you guys mua lovely colleagues
Taa~daaaaa

Left~Sam,Moiz,Tupac,Leng~ Right~Kuek & Jo Ee

We're the rock star!! Roarrss

Tupac switch to Ken, but he's our crew and i hates him! farking Fair! Darn.

Here goes~ Ms Sam Yuen Fun, Let's have some fun =P
And this~ Ms Soo Keng Leng~ the butterfinger Queen! lOl, she always break fragile thingy.

And lastly, the beauty one (puik) Ms Teewaji Guna! (Wheee!!~)
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and there goes the winner of the beauty year 2009 falls to~ chiang chiang chiang~ The Middle one! Ms Tee!!
(Wooooohhhh~puik) lOl. kisiao.
here goes the zap-blang gangz. Multiraces.
the event started

the freak 8TV Mascot.

moiz leggie pain due to some technical problem~hence, Nike shoes 'beh sai' lorh
freaking Koyak end of the day~lOl
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I heart the gurls! Winks!

wookie, back to real life, nothing much, work, eat , zzz, drink, talk cock, dreaming and bla bla bla~ oh yeah! i gain weight. TNS! progress of diet already, kinda bored. Cutting down white coffee and dinner now. Sien~ Rumbe thanks to Bb for always forcing me to have supper with him while am at his place~ Sigh. O Lord! Help moi!

How was the status for Bb and moi right? am sure my peeps wondering it. Sometimes will still fight ger.. But at the end, you know moi right?! 3 mins fire.. SOooomm no more. lOl! he stil being busy as usual, but moi will spend time with him on weekends, normally we will lepak till 6 am (he busy with his work, and moi busy with the visuals) and then when he done his work, we will catch up movie and just lepak around.

Went for Ice Age last week at The Gardens with Bb, bee and tara. Having fun with the movie, Bb said that his first time dedicate to moi cos he wont spend for idiotic Cartoons. lol. Who ask you 'lao niu chi run chao' Lmao! You have to give way to the younger one =P

Bb checked moi's sms and keep making noise for keeping other guys taxt instead of keeping his, and what moi can said is, halo, YOU TOO~ nehnehninehneh~ plus yours one always will be the 'diu-ing text' lOl. What for keeping?Hor?

Met NaiZ on Sunday and had long chat with Him, moi's mouth none stop.. 'blablabablaalblababal' once she saw naiZ, lOl, he's moi beloved naiZ! Always do =) Till the night, follow naiZ to Lai Yee's birthday dinner (one of naiZ and Bb's friend) and meet up with the gang that night. Still, laugh nia~ Ah sou gain 3 kg! OMFG, luckily ah gor is not consider as the slim type, boleh tahan larh while they standing together. But moiz cant! As the freak ass beh beh is freaking slim, just like a Bamboo stick == Stressed. Nothing much, just enjoy the day with'em, and at last can communicate with Tara, Bee's gf. (she's bitsy of lc in her look, lOl)

Coming up next~ Zoe's bufday parteyy at 789 =)

Ja'an!!

2009-07-23T11:57:00.002+08:00

ennuyez-vous de mon garçon

Mondaee

2009-07-20T11:37:00.003+08:00

Mondae Bluee . Work like A Pork . AGAIN

Will be a busy week for Moiz, having loads of fun in Shout Awards Events, she made a statement as in
She Hates Her Job, Workloads, yet She Heart Her Colleagues
and she saw Sean Kingston! Pretty much nothing but He just reminds her a piece of Pork. Lol. Will update it later when she's free. Stay tune =)

NaiZ having fever, she's worried cos he started quite long ago with on and off mode. H1N1 Freak! Lol. Pray hardly that he'll be recover soon. Amen! and so do his workloads, pray that those farker will shamed on themselves as pushing all the workloads to this poor thingy patient =p Darn them!

Bb is under stress recently, yet he overcome it by buying himself Lego. Ish Ish.. Like a child nia. Spending few days with him and am nearly die on the spot due to heart attack. He's just a darn smart ass. If I'm his mother I will surely, SURELY throw him to the sea! As chinese people used to say : 'Sang gao cha siew better than give birth to him' , gek hei.

More updates coming =) Happy working everybodeeyyy!

A rare day

2009-07-15T03:10:00.004+08:00

Been busy for days, finally get myself into the newly room on last saturday (credits for my lovely peeps, Kai & Dai lou) but unfortunately I have no time to settle down and unpack my stuff. LMAO, you can't imagine that we just threw every damn thing into the room, and *piak piak* our ass and shoot off. What to do? Moi have to rush for the visuals and the due date is on Sunday. Darn.

The whole day Moi sticking her ass outside and my dear Kai was so pity where he stays with me for the whole day long. From Ikano - Tropicana - Puchong - Tropicana - Kepong Old Town - Mont Kiara McD - Mont Kiara Coffee Bean - His Home. Lol and end up Moi continue her journey at Pappa Rich and lastly Bb's house. A feeling of, *HOMELESS* appears. Lol. What to do? I need internet excess to do some research for her work. And Moi's weekend end up with sinking herself in Office. What a sad case!

Nothing pretty much to update as Moi just having the same routine as usual, same shit different day. Lol, maybe there's something else whereby her mood swings terribly recently. Why will she said so is because she's happy in this moment but will simply get mad for the other second. Lol. Gals... But she grew up a lot in the way she deliver her job, as in she never show blardy face in office while she's mad with the job or client.

'Why this project you seems relax jer?' her boss ask her with his curious eyes looking at her *qing qing* Lol.

'Cos I know no matter how, I still have to DIE DIE submit it.' She replied.

*mmm..*with a happy face on his face, like a father seeing his dotter started to learn increasing her EQ. Ha! Nah, He felt betta as she won't show shitty face to him. Lol

Submitted the tender today and it was like *Fuhh* sweating tough shiatz. Moi fell asleep and she's actually running out of time! Driving recklessly to get herself back to the office with tears around the blardy face. Gosh! Sounds kiddo as am 22 this year and still will burst into tears because of this nuisance.Well, am just being responsible with what I should do kay? Stop laughing!

*Woo..Wheeping*

'I fall asleep and my work is not done yet!' Speak to NaiZ.

I called NaiZ and talk to him while am driving. No idea why, Sorry ehh NaiZ, for calling you early in the morning. =p

Gonna meet loads of artist this coming Friday at Bukit Jalil Shout Awards. We're the event organizer for them. Moi believe there's repay for the hard work =) Will capture some of them and post it here =*)

As of Today

2009-07-10T18:27:00.006+08:00

Rushing for new tender again, kinda different event whereby not more towards booths and etc but is something newly. She's been busy until there is no time for her to pack her stuff and get herself in to the new house. Slurp, how good it is if she just needs to snap her finger; There she is!! in the new place. So lame.

Everything seems to be fine, got a fight with Him but end up they settled it by giving each other a huggies.
She felt warm when he hugs her *Winks* simply Heart the feeling =D
Is a good start isn't?

Seems started to care for each other more, She's trying not to be a biatch to judge from outside, and She did it. She's trying to care and don't care whether He starts first or She starts it first. She's trying not to care so much so that she won't get to be hurt so much. She's trying to be back HERSELF.

He keep himself awake while She's rushing her work until 6 plus in the morning *Yawning*.. Poor thing, but he's enjoying flirting around in MSN and poker-ing in FB. *Faint, who cares?As long as happy both sides*

She's craving for coffee, and there goes, he brought her to Pavilion and get it from Starbucks! Yeah!

'So easily get contented and smile cos of it -___-' He said.

'=)' on her face. 'Contented! I don't care! lalalilala'

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'I met wit MC's friend today and we gossip her 9 9' He said.

'.......... =) ???' on her face (doesn't know what should be say, so...... *yiiiii* a smile nia, more than enough lerh)

'bla..bla....bla and bla...' He continue.

'...............................' She felt; is He trying to comfort her and prove to her that He no longer care for that woman? Fark it, as of now, she felt doesn't important FIRST. She hopes it will be just HIM and her for at this moment. Jet'aime Ja'an!..

She miss NaiZ loads. Been like an decades didnt meet him up.
*Freezing* die ler, will got gap or not later?? NaiZ Sowie for neglecting you.
MoiZ been busy for her work. Will catch up with you soon! After Monday!!
MoiZ got loads of cock to tell cha =p

Chiowz..

She...

2009-07-08T13:06:00.003+08:00

Been blur for few days, her heart and her soul is not with moi. The tatts fark up (cos of the sambal she guess) end up suffering the pain and illness for this two days, moreover moi is having her menstrual pain as well, it was like - - -
END OF THE WORLD. My Gosh!

HE changed, she guess? Imagine it, He keep text-ing her more than she can imagine per day, the way He speak through the phone turns softer. IZIT HIM she thinks. Might be blur still, that is why she treat Him kinda COLD. Sowie. He knows to worried while she's ill, no longer nagging and scolding yet He offer himself to take care of Her.

He offer himself to send her to the doctor.
He offer himself to send her to meet the landlord.
He offer himself to help her move to the new place.
He offer himself to buy her food.
He asked to stays with him and to take care of her.
He ensure that she sleeps at night.
He ensure that she take her meals.
He ensure that she is safe to reach home.
He will miss her at night.
He brought her the medicine.
He will ask not to leave him.
He will send her to bed and wait till she falls asleep before he leaves.

But she's rejecting.

Will all these fade away in a few days time later? that is why till now she just simply put a smile on face. Pray hardly it will really last longer until she wakes. Apparently she is stressed out. And treating everyone with bucket of ice cubes, including the dearest naiZ of her.

She dare not disturb naiZ.
She dare not trouble naiZ.
She dare not let naiZ knows what is going on (she doesn't know indeed)
She do not want naiZ to worried.
She afraid naiZ will fed up.
She afraid naiZ will give up.
But She still don't have the energy to make it better.
She been tiring to look for anyone else.
She just wanna be with herself.
She just wanna rest as much as she could.
She just wanna be alone.
She is trying hard to search back Her Heart . Her Soul.

Bb, naima, please wait for the return of Moiz.
She's trying her very best. Time can prove everything.

H . H . H

2009-07-06T10:28:00.006+08:00

'Slept?' receive text at 7 in the morning.

'Nop' she replied.

'Give up, give up the whole gang including me. I rather want you to give up than seeing you torturing in this way.'

'He's not worth for me to give up on you dear, there's no such thing.'

Conversation between hide-X and Her. And She will never ever give up on hide-X.

She cried, and hands up the phone, started to type out a message.

'Darl, am giving up.'

He keep calling and calling, and send Her a text.

'Why suddenly give up dear? I don't want and not allow! I promise I will change to be a better one and please don't give up.'

and the second one,
letting Her know what is really in his mind, the true words from an ego man, a man will not pull down his face to pamper Her, a man that will not even pull down his face to sweet mouth her. She stoned for while. She's truly touch by the message, but just... izit kinda...
Late?? She think.

He came. Hug Her tight where He never did before. Kiss Her forehead where He never did before. Warm, silent at that moment. He explain every single misun where She used to have included the past. More and more tight He hug. Tears from Her dripping on his shirt.

She's stoned. Off. All the while is just a misun? She's being a biatch for thinking and judging by following her instinct?..

I m who i m dude!

2009-07-05T05:53:00.003+08:00

With precious babe ZoE

Went drinking with bro and hon at 7atenine last night. Truly terrible, 2 shots of flaming, 2 shots of Bacardi apple, and another 2 don't know what name was that. Fuuh, Honey, you introduce the wrong bosses to me duhzzz, am nearly die wei. Lol. Mr cool ask for a date for movie, wondering, should I? Shouldn't I.

Saturday,
Definitely bored okay! Can't stand it. Was at BB's house and Zzzzz all the time cause am having hang over after the drink the day before. He's busying doing his job and so I just spend my Zzzz time there. Guess he forgotten that he supposed to accompany me to get a matress before I move in to the new place, and so do movie that he had mention. Around 5 plus he was craving for durian therefore we went out and bought it, back home and watch drama series. Wth, am freaking bored! The feeling of stuck in stranger's house was darn torturing. I can't sit like a biatch which I used to do, can't lay on the bed like for nobody business, can't do whatever I feel to. Darn it.

Awaited until 9 plus, as he's busying to key in his stuff, finally we get to get our ass out of the house! 7 hours! Puke.

'hmm, he off today, and he done all his stuff, after dinner perhaps is gonna be my time then'
tis is what Moi was wondering.

'Later I'm going out with Jason.'

Shiaaahhhhhhhh.. (Water splashing on mua blardy face)

Fark it. I have a selfish conclusion, no matter how free I am, how hardly I get to beg for holidays, ITS USELESS. Because there's no difference! You're the one who said this and that, but end up how? You said that I can request you to accompany me but how do you want me to ask as you promise people before considering the one sitting beside you? Started feel like am really looks like a puppet. Am farking tired facing YOU!!! Again you mention Her. Hello??.... Am I DEAD????

Can you please farking stop comparing this relatioship with your pass relationship?
Can you please farking stop comparing me with others?
I am who I am when you know me on the first day!
I drink, I smoke, I $#%^&, Am a farking biatch since the day you know me?
Just farking stop asking me to do this and that,

She doesn't smoke. It's farking none of my business, yea yea, she smoke but just for a month, SO? I HAVE TO QUIT FORSAKE OF THAT?CAN'T YOU JUST GET A LAME EXCUSE AS IN NOT HEALTHY??
You both only went for movie, walk around when you got time. You're sorry cause you can't get to get back to 18-22 that moment. SO?? MEANS YOU MUST BE BACK WITH THE SAME PERSON THEN ONLY YOU CAN DO ALL THIS??
She didn't text you when she's home letchu felt insecure and now I have to, just because you don't want the feeling of people dump you occur. AND I HAVE TO?
Guys calling me, 'Whose that?!' you shouted. How bout girls call you up? 'I don't have gf larh, 8 years also 'pao fui' la'. AND THIS THIS IS THE WAY YOU RESPECT THE GAL BESIDE YOU.
Gonna catch up with my peeps, 'guy or gal? courting you?', HELLO, YOU REALLY CONCERN OR YOU JUST AFRAID OF LOSING FACE.
'I will be back early, you come and look for me larh.' ISN'T SUPPOSED TO BE YOUR JOB FOR LOOKING ME?? you made me feel like am a hooker, or door finder?wth. AND guess what, your early will be 2 or 3 am. Darn early man.
'Don't likely often mang zang infront of me' He said. EXCUSED YOU, WHEN YOU MANG ZANG FOR FARKING NO REASON NAGGING FOR NO REASON AND WHAT'S THAT DUDE? AM MANG ZANG JUST BECAUSE YOU ALWAYS PUSHED ME ASIDE!

Told cha, this is the way I am when we know each other.
Do you still remember we smoke together at first we drink?
Am craving for alcohol cig like for nobody business since am working in event line, and You Know; Don't farking turn back and tell me how She behave and I have to follow Izit? Who the hell are you telling me all sorts of nonsense! Okay fine. Go and get your farking MJ tatts and leave me alone! Hug tight your past till the end of the world!

Am lose, I tried, hardly works.
Am wishing at least once, ONCE, there's a blog post of mine saying that AM HAPPY TODAY WITH MY BB.
Guess it will not happen. Cause I believe, relationship doesn't work out if only one side is trying hard. It involve both party. Dude, I surrender.

L O S T

2009-07-03T02:14:00.007+08:00

Yoohoo its holiday today!

Yeah what a holiday but will receive call in a sudden and ask to do some changes, and now it's 2.20 midnight and am still receiving calls from them. Wtf. Really feel like screaming out a word : Pundek!

I was awake till 5 in the morning but I have no idea the exact time when I fell asleep. Received a text from naima and it says : Naima won't give up on you.

Don't know why, I burst into tears. I felt insecure, lost. There's loads of unseen deep hurts insight of me, be frank, sometimes I didn't know what am I doing or what I really want. Being blur every single day, every single moment. Don't know since when I started to behave like this, doesn't looks like me neither. Apparently I was living in a world of fantasy, in my own dead world. I miss the previous laughter when I was still in college, indeed I started miss the memories of my first lurve, the way he pamper and treasure me, the way I depends on him, kinda hard to get back the feeling. Maybe am still naive at that age. No longer for now, Moi grew up a lot, seeing different people everyday, facing multiproblem per day, forcing Moi to be independent, defensive. This is not what am looking for.

I just wanna be simple.
A simple minded, simple smile, simple life.
That's it.

I need to really sit down and figure out what I really want, am being a puppet for now, I lost myself, everyone controlling my way, or should say am allowing others to control me, I can't voice out. Previously will still try to get someone to pour out my stuff but it seems fading soon. Am being tired, and really couldn't voice out.

I just feel like keeping and bearing it and Don't give a fark to the world. I don't want anything. Anymore.

Today.

2009-07-02T02:59:00.009+08:00

What a day. Ended MCC's Event yesterday at KL PAC, was darn tired. Client on and off picking those unnecessary thingy, Sam Sam and I have to rush to Maxis Building just to pass a CD to the biatch and find a way to get flower decor. It was lunch time, c'mon! It's farking jam and am driving manual leh dai lou, my legs....

'Hello?? Leggies.. You still with me???'

Was staying alone in a room to rush the coming dateline..

Started boring, ideas out, skills out, insufficient oxygen in my brain. Cam whore sikit.. Back to reality, started to be frust but still have to do what. Fark it larh!! Angry still need to work marh.. Work larh then...

Went to Babe Ryusaki's shop today, alright, I got it. Can be cover, mission complete.
After that called up Naima but poor thing that he still stuck with his work and it's 7 in the evening. Sign. BB called and ask to drop by to his house cause no point stuck in the jam at this hour. True also, so, I'm there. Wondering will he nag me for it but luckily he keep quiet as I promised him it will be the last. (but i doesn't want it to be like this, learned a lesson again)

Naima seems weird today, maybe he's giving up baby. Today's everyone seems moody, so did I. There's loads funny stuff to share but just lazy -______________-

He told her that he's gonna get a tatts and draw it on her leg using the finger which indicate
'MJ', the first thoughts in her is the name of the ex following by his name. And she asked him where to place the thingy? There he pointed the place where she felt familiar whereby the ex of him having a little thingy at the same part. All the mood just fade away in a sudden moment but she just act tough by just returned him a gently smile on her face. Thou he told her that is a remembrance of a passed away singer but it is kinda ridiculous as 'When Is He so in lurve with the singer where no one knows it?' Reminds her back the day before, he called and she heard the song from X-Japan from his side which is belongs to their song. She's dawn. Definitely dawn. Is she just a replacement of loneliness? No one knows.

She's lost. Insecure. Losing the world soon?

What a Bad Day

2009-06-29T02:56:00.008+08:00

Our King of Pop, the Legend, Passed Away.

Striking news isn't it? Was wondering why radio station keep on playing His song while am on my way to office.
And the news of, 'Michael Jackson passed away' announced.
OMG. Unbelievable! Unpredictable!

Though am not His fans, but, I still felt that is a waste that He left at the age of 50.
Michael Jackson, Rest in Peace.

' Moi, I am so sad..'
' Why?? What happened? Runner gave you shiatz again?..' (Worrying...)

' ............ Michael Jackson Lan jor'

OMG, It's funny in the way he express
'Lan jor = Dead'

BB being emo because of the death of MJ. Was bit curious why people will be such emo just because of MJ? Where I guess even their closest relatives pass away they won't be such Emo. Human being... No idea. No comment.

Well,

Darn good movie! It's definitely a great movie. Heart the story line, the motion, the animations, everything! Had a thoughts of being a animator if I could. Maybe I should attend the last class of 3D animation =p (at last, a betta excuses to ask the lazy worms to Get Lost!)

Guess I am going for next round! ~I'm rise, You Fall~ Yan!

Unfortunately, before went for the movie someone spoilt my mood. Ish! Yeah is YOU.
Was freaking mad bout it, as in Kena suddenly, no reason. Oww Noh, noh.. there is a reason

I am tired marh, not enough sleep.
Aiks, then i have to be the victim of it? Unfair lorh..

Sorry naima that spoiling your mood as well, making you worried. Rumbe Sorriess..
After I received Bb's call, I Know okay, I know my face looks shiatz. Lol. Normal what? Just like a bucket of cold water splash on my face. Darn you, Low Beh Beh!

Lol, he's late and before I went into cinema he nag me again in the phone, just because you can't wake up yourself. Ish X2!! Thank God that the advertisment took some time and idiot Bb manage to get himself on time. Naima text me asked to sit with him but I refuse to cause I know if i did, Step shit again. Forget bout it. He's here and movie started, showing him my farking emo face whereby I do felt innocent for what he did. There goes larh, '3 minutes fire' just fade away when he smells my hair and hold my hand =)

Knowing naima being worried, feel sorry and text him this morning to apologize. Lol. No doubt that I do heart him cause he really treasure moi, where to find this kind of guy nowaday! =p Kinda envy Her but she's just don't appreciate it. Naima! I am Still with you (thou am bit clumsy and troublesome) just don't give a fark to those who mm sek foh =p

Fuuh, tired. Theres loads more update but just lazy to blog. Lol.
As what I told naima, blogging is when I was Down, Dawn, Darn.

Nitez buddies!!

2009-06-27T21:50:00.004+08:00

Again.. Bored.. headache cause everytime still facing the same problem.

Staying outside for the damn whole day. Woke up at 8 plus and be in office at 9 plus JUST to pass the CD to the printer. End up force myself to stay with 'Andy' (the guidance in the office) just to assure I finish up the visuals before going for movie night~ Transformer!!

Will be a very busy week for me again. Hope everthing is under control. Will not fail it! Went out to Sg Wang to let Babe Ryusaki to take a look on the mistake that I made, a damn big mistake, Stupid mistake!! 'Chin nin dou hang yat jiu song'. Serious isn't? See whether there is still a chance to Safe it. Fuuh... can cover it, but kinda big size needed.

Moi decided to cover it with Daruma Japanese Doll.

Hehe. It's something new and will make it color i guess. And a vow I made to myself. THIS WILL BE THE LAST! Hope so.

Am trying my very best to be happy. But seems like couldn't hide it as of now. NOW.

Aiks, what a failure. Headache came back to me again. Chiowz.

<3 is in the air. But I cant Breath!

2009-06-25T13:51:00.005+08:00

Sick.

That's it for today's bloggie.

LOL. Sampat..

Am having fever since Monday til today which is Thursday! And having bad bad flu since Tuesday. Darn, H1N1?? All started to scare and fool me. OMG, Bitsy worried but there is a strong feeling of, I won't get to die so early as am one of the entertainment where people loves to irritate my life. LMAO.

Yesterday went Fook Dei to meet up with the guts and also my lovely Naima and BB =)
The first reaction from them is
: Why you come out???? Lui gai fong ar, quarantine yourself larh..

None stop laughing when I saw Hung's face expression, can't deny bro, you looks like tweety bird's Nanny! LOL! He gonna kill me if he knows this. And I had a smooches on 'wa bao lao shu fen', sounds funny right? We know how to pronounce it in cantonese but when turn it to mandarin, We fail! There goes, Laughter sourrounding us =)

BB came after I finished my meal, pity him of running up and down. But he seems willing to do it, let him jerr. $_$ <--- BB and Tat sharing bout the poker they played the day before in FB, which is until 6 in the morning, darn them! A girl declare that BB looks like Ronaldo! Xiu Bao! Cause BB just using Ronaldo's photo as his FB default picture. After a while, Naima them went for counter strike AGAIN, so i gotta go back home but BB asked to accompany him until his boss is there. So I continue sat there and have a short chat bout his job. He's facing crazee insomnia as I'm having. But I guess he's one will be just of 'itchy ass', POKER till kisiao. Hope he can go back to normal soon. So do me and Naima.

Nearly met an accident when I drove back to my house. Blurred out. Kosong . Whitess . in my sight, luckily am still reach home safely. Fever came back at night again. Sad Case.
Nosiee you Blocked my air! Nothing but the Air! Darn.

Am MC-ing at home now. So do my dear Naima, He finally collapse! as for BB, He's Sleeping still. =.=

Can't wait for Saturday! Transformer II !!

Lurve today, For no fucking reason LOL.

Finally

2009-06-23T15:44:00.008+08:00

Finally. Broke down.
Lol, having fever now due to invisible stress am facing. In terms of work and rs.
Its been a while i leave here empty as am really busy recently. Back to back tenders to pick on.
Can't breath, being moody and stuck in unstable mood. Just like the world is owning me thousands and millions.

Was staying at home yesterday but yet received some message that really irritate my life, the feeling at that moment was like WTF?! Pissed! Early morning when I am awake, bad bodyache I am suffering to and I decided to get a day off, while there goes the nightmare began. Moreover, I heard from my colleague that Someone might join us back in our company, being so hardly to forget the past but Why? Why all bouncing back? headache.

Forget bout it.

His been busy recently, or I should say He never be available for all these while. But I understand this is the timing for you to fight for your future, so... ZIP.

But it's getting worst as the feeling seems getting far far away from the track. He saying that I always blocked him from further conversation. Am I? But He'll never know that he is actually slightly the same with me. Lol.

Maybe this is the way we are.

Well, I can't predict what will happen the next as obviously we didnt really meet each other due to our Abnormal working hours. Hence, as what nai ma always tell me, let it be, get used to His character.

Maybe this is the way I can act. Cause you told me before that,
you won't let people know what is actually in your mind.

He's saying that I seems bored to this relationship and giving him a feeling of,

I Don't Need A BF?? wth?? Duh, I didnt, i guess.
I do hope it work out, but when I lead into the conversation of settling it,
You cut me off, and you will try to avoid.
But when you lead into that, I will Buta-buta kena from you =/

Instead,
Am having a feeling that He haven't really put down MC.
Just a feeling. But girls feeling always darn Zun geh... LMAO.

All these while, If Nai ma is not around me i guess am already collapse.
Been click to Nai ma's blog and found out that he might give up on his baby, I was like

OMG!

Lol, Please don't give up baby as I'm one of your happy pie isn't? Thou am bitsy of complicated in mindset but am still believe that I did bring laughter to you right? (cos am freaking idiotic and always falls to their trap, 'Singapore spy'.. Faint!!).

♥ You, nai ma =)

Tomorrow, there might be a change of my life. No idea whether I want it to be happen or not.
Leave it to the Almighty one. I wanna say Buhbye to all the burden am facing.

Jet'aime,
Do hope you know what am thinking as per
I dowanna give up so easily.
But if things really can't work out.
I have no choice but to get rid of it.
No matter one is trying so hard.
But you never notice it. or
Might be am not in your heart yet?
For sake of U and Mi.
Maybe the hardest decision will be the best for us.

P/S . I ♥ You.

DULL.

2009-05-29T20:01:00.003+08:00

People used to describe Monday as Monday Blue, for me everyday is just the same shiatz. BLUE. Nah nah, should be Black?? Dark??
Agrh, F*ck it.. Let's make it DULL.

LOL.

I am going to have a busy week again. Scratching my head what I should do. Have to rush out few layouts this weekend. No mood douz. ='(
Wanted to concentrate on my work, but just cannot make it. Don't know what the crap am thinking. I feel Weak, very weak. I need a long rest or just a short trip. Urge!!!

Not in the mood to write, decided to go home and have a good rest. Deal!
Chiowz

顺其自然

2009-05-28T15:06:00.006+08:00

只需要默默的待在我身边,

让我依靠,很难吗?

感觉很奇怪,想放弃一切,

放弃世界.

顺其自然也是废的.

Dead Mode

2009-05-26T19:50:00.004+08:00

Sighzzz...

A Big BIG SIGHZ...
Moiz been busy for the whole week where she can even forget her mom's name. Darn.
Been stucked in Panasonic KWN event for five days at Glenmarie Holiday Inn Resort.
Tell you what, it's the most sucks days in my life for sitting there like a vase.
Day 1 to 5 i have to wake up at 6am the latest! Shiatz! Imagine, you want a human being who falls asleep at 4 or 5am and wakes at 6am. Ridiculous man! That's the reason I'm Sick at the end of the show ends.

At first I thought will be a holiday for as per my information, basically I just need to stick my Ass on the chair and make the show runs well. So called 'Coordinator'. Who knows, the client is farking irritating, this la that la... Aduh... Leave me alone!
Alright, here it goes. My boss came to visit (checking) me and he told me that there's new tender. Hence, I NEED TO DRAW THE VISUALS while being a runner at the particular event. C'mon! Insane-nya. But nevermind, betta then sitting there for no reason. Problem is no internet excess! How am I gonna do my research for the damn roadshow?! Besides, no one gonna help me out and just,

'Tee, I want this, this and this, you see what you can do.'

Dai lou ar, its easy for you say you mau ni ni dan ni, can't you guys just pity me abit for at least get some ideas for me? NEVERMIND, I do it myself. So, after the event, around eleven I rush to Fook Dei and start doing the stuff via internet excess. It's far kan? What to do? Kaki kat sana...>.<

Continuos, is CONTINUOS dudes!
6am to 4mid night! stuck in the stupiak Puchong Toll for minimum per hour. Shiatz! All Shiatz!
There lah, am sick now due to the workloads and sleepless.

Its all ended!! yuhuu!! But tender and tenders coming in.. Nonestop.
No mood, being poker face now. NO expression at all.
Thou my boss inform me that the concept that I've been came out for one of the roadshow is accepted yet my face was still =(
* Shit larh!! more work to do now * in my mind. Not surprise neither happiness at all.

Dah Numb dah!...

'You didnt miss me meh?'
'Nope. (thou got bitsy larh). Work marh..'
'You work I work then we $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$'
'=.='''' (Sweat). I work is bcos you're BUSY, and am not $_$'
'ahahahaha...'

What a conversation between me and beybeh.
miss BeyBeh loads loads for didnt meet you for some time due to the workloads, luckily you're as busy as me. =p What a lame excuse.

Babe Zoe gonna back to town soon! Miss chu babe!
Ladeysss there goes our night out began....
Miss mua babe Kerrie too!!

Chiowz!

Lovely Weekends

2009-05-19T12:06:00.009+08:00

Moi Heart Guinness!

Update update!! LOL!

Been busy for the week and I just got the photos from babe Kerrie.
Well well, am having a glamorous weekend and Am Contented!
Last Friday we headed to HQnine @ Plaza TTDI. With my bitches and bulls =p
Babe Zoe is back to town so we're planning to have SOME fun and planned to have a few shots at Jaya One. Unfortunately my babes is bored with the environment *Before* I reached there =.=
Babes', susahlah you orang.. LMAO joking joking =p

And there! cellphone is the best partner in our lives, called up Lkit and they're actually @ HQnine and so we decided to join them~ o yea, Happy Birthday to Pui Yee (if not mistaken) on that night =)

Let's see whats there

Bee Bee!!

Hon Hon!!

muh ladeyysss

Moi, both not healthy.. noneed to choose =p

moiz . lkit . Mr Noname . Mr Cool

Its Fun, Funny, Excited!!
and I'm late on Saturday' Meeting ='(
Darn, Sowiee..
Moiz was drunk but A Good One!

I miss my beh Badly!! Mwahhhh~
Chiowz..

Indecision . Insecure . defensive?

2009-05-15T18:37:00.008+08:00

Really don't know whut's in your mind. Yes, you prefer to keep to yourself rather than show it out, but whut I felt is that its totally differ from previous. Maybe it's because of your workloads, I cannot blame you, totally understand. But just the weird feeling in me, makes me feel so insecure. The time when I saw you, am excited and will just glance a smile on my face, but when the time you sat down beside me or in front of me, the fear is there. I dare not even talk, it is so different with the previous relationship.

'Isit just a 'very normal friend' will be betta?' Something pops out in my mind. AGAIN.
'Why does it so different from the past?'

Yes, you do care me but is for what you're thinking. He does told me that you were like this, and this is you. I cannot do anything. Thank you for saying that you will change, but it seems you don't understand. You know what, guess it is my problem that I don't have the basic secure in me. There's too much of bad influence by him and her last time, and its stuck in me. Gosh! Why am I a pieces???? I hate the feeling of 'thinking stuff that is unnessery and it's not actually exist'

Its just the beginning, when will it be the end? If these continuos to be this way?..

Duhz, dare not even think of it.
Am tired and sleepy now.
Looking forward to meet up with my babes' later, babe Zoe is back to town!
=( Still haven't hear from you

Chiowz!

Heart this - You're Not Sorry

2009-05-13T18:45:00.004+08:00

All this time I was wasting hoping you would come around
I’ve been giving out chances everytime and all you do is let me down
And its taking me this long but baby I figured you out
And you think it will be fine again but not this time around

You don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don’t want to hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I won’t believe you baby like I did before
You’re not sorry no more, no more, no

Lookin’ so innocent
I might believe you if I didn’t know
Could’a loved you all my life
If you hadn’t left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I’m tired of being last to know
And now you’re asking me to listen
Cuz its worked each time before

But you don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don’t want to hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I don’t believe you baby like I did before
You’re not sorry no no no noo
You’re not sorry no no no noo

You had me calling for you honey
And it never would’ve gone away no
You use to shine so bright
But I watched our love it fade

So you don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There’s nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I won’t believe you baby like I did before

Moiz and Babeyz

2009-05-12T10:19:00.011+08:00

hooohuu Its been a while didn't update you bloggiee!

A day with lotsa fun and laughter! Had a great time with both my babez. No doubt that they're my most treasure creature in the world. Love you babez!

Babe Kerrie,
Happy Birthday to you and
I hope that there'll be no more sorrows on you
You will get a betta life that out of your expectation
Bare in mind that, no matter there's something that happens on you
We will always be there for you.
Only You~

=A Freshy day ahead=

*before & after of artificial stuffiez dap on moiz*

*Paddington Pancakes House*

*The ladeys & the pans*

*Silly Faces*

*We Lurve the Cams*

*Everywhere.Anytime*

*Kerrie . Moiz . Zoe . D shopaholic*

*The Drunkards*

*When The Liquors Conquer her*

Met with my babes on last Saturday, its been a long long while we never hang out together.
Seen to be a decade itself, LMAO.
They're the most treasure ones in my life, and will never be replace.
I lurve them with all ~my heart . my soul~
Till the end of the world, the end run of my life.
The gals plays an important role in my life cycle.
Praise The Lord that I have'em.
Babes, Our friendship will never ends though there's thunder and storms strike on us.
=*Forever in mind, my precious.*=

Words in Me_TREAT ME INVISIBLE

2009-05-04T10:12:00.011+08:00

Yeah its Labour Day I KNOW.

Run up and down to search for a place for myself. Fook Dei, Kaki Place.. Darn.. Am freaking SIENZ..

Holiday = Busy as well

Credits for my lovely Kai Kai who purposely accompany and send me to Fook Dei JUST to visit a pent house. Unfortunately the environment doesn't suits me well. Keep Rolling Babe! Thanks babe for having you to travel so far.

Moiz & Kai

Lemme think where am I for this three day.. hmm..
Thursday night I'v been drunk badly where I puke twice but a good one. We been started to drink from 1.40 in the afternoon until 12am midnight.. Note, We = my colleagues and bosses, in office.

Lol, am not kidding douz. Yeap is in the office. Chill people chill! We just celebrating the preview of labour day =P

But I learn something,
'Be yourself, Set Your Goal, Stand Strong and get clear what you want.'

'Doesn't have to react on how people act.'

Yes! I got it. Am trying my very best to do it. C'mon! Stand Up babe!

The day after, well,
was sticking my butt at Fook Dei with the guts.

To U,
If you felt that you're doing the right way then PLEASE just get your way,
Spam whateva you wanna spam,
Stands Strong for it,
Doesn't have to text me on what you did,
I didn't know whats in your passage,
AND I am not interested to read it as well,
What you did, automatically there are CNN Reporter to report it,
I don't care!

C'mon, I am sorry to say that but just leave me alone,
Why not use the time to do stuff which is more meaningful?
You doesn't need to give a fark on what people think of you,
I really not interested to continue the dilemma with you,
Not being sarcastic or what,
But I do have my own stuff to worried and things which is more important to do (mostly earn $)

So, get your way your life,
If you really felt that I am making you an idiot,
AM SORRY.
And lastly, I DIDN'T.
That's the way it is, depends on how you wanna take it.
C'mon! Nothing is more important than family and $$,
And Please ACT NO DEAF. I said it and it & DOES MEANT it that way.

I HOPE THE WORLD DO

Treat Me Invisible.

Give Me A Way.

I Need PISS (darn, is PEACE)

A newie Day

2009-04-29T12:28:00.003+08:00

Today is a good day =) Will be a great day from now onwards.
Wanna beat down and say good-bye to my trademark _ Sleepy facies. BYEZ! It's hard but I have to!

This week really looks like a honeymoon week for me, lol. Darn goodeneh! But good time doesn't last for too long, once the rain pour..... they will irritate my life again. LMAO.

Mom is the greatest creature that God gave me, soup and dishes.. Yum Yum!! Lurve it.. Miss my sista in a sudden. Miss the day where three of us go lepak lepak and eat around.. Jie, Where You??? Sorry that I didnt answer your call always as everytime you called, I am inconvenience to pick up your phone.

iPhone~ Wait for me! =P

17042009

2009-04-28T10:15:00.009+08:00

Lotsa stuff in my mind, have loads of thingy needs to be done by this week. No matter what, no matter how, all needs to be settle! I am moving out to stay with mama ( duh freedom mana??) BUT BUT freedom balik during middle of May where she's leaving for a trip to Australia.

Yesterday, he came. Its 2 plus in the morning. Wondering why you still here. Thought its the end of everything. You're the one who blast out the words of hurting without consider how big the impact will be. ' Bet the most important part is between your leg '. Izit means that others part is not important? Hurts does cost! Heck, mom always said try to get a christian man to be my life partner, at the end still the same what. Humanity is all the same where don't care what the hell you are. Mom, if the guy is a good guy, religion doesn't plays in an important role.

I'm glad I know both of you which really gave me darn loads of lesson. I'm growing even more. At least, I will learn to protect myself more! But at the same time, I realize that theres a bunch of guts that really care for me. Without you guys, guess I will not stand up so easily. Because of you guys, I learned to live for a betta life.

Keez, thank you for everything, you always keep yourself in stand-by mode just to ensure that I will not suddenly break down again. Thank you Thank you for the precious words of comfort. Thank you for always ensuring that I am safe, ensure that somebody is with me, though sometimes you felt that you're nagging me, but Your caring kept me warm all the time. Don't understand why I stick to you so much, but definitely not like what you said you're my 'bou mou'. LMAO. Thousand appreciation! Lurve ya!

Chris & CY, thanks for what you did, sorry for giving you guys such a big surprise, yet still you guys still be here for me.

Beh, sorry babe for not respect you where I always be the decision maker and didn't consider how you feel. Sorry that I had bang you in all sorts of problems. Sorry for the pain that I led. Thanks for treasuring me for so much and I knew that you're trying your best to secure me. I will try not to keep things in me. Hope that you will understand that am care for you but just that I don't know the way to express it out to you. I know theres reason why we get along, because I believe thing comes for a reason, and I will treasure it babe. Maybe theres question that why it comes to this in a surprise way, where we just realize that actually we've bumped into each other for so long and at last we put our foot down and it came to this kind of situation. Thousand of apologise. Every scar on your body reminds me how much you sacrifice for me just to keep me safe. Thanks babe.

Thank You Babe

2009-04-27T14:40:00.004+08:00

Bull-shits, this is the only word I can said. I thought I can forgive and forget bout what you did. Am sorry, I couldn't make it. You making me felt that I'm stupid, biatch, am insane on what you did! If I didn't lock the door, what will happen? If they are not here, guess I am the one who step on the shits that you plan. Do not said you didn't expect it comes that way! You are not that childish, you should have know what kind of people they are. Giving excuses really doesn't look like you, excuses makes you looks evil! Stop treating me as a babe, I have faith on you but end up you ruin everything! We're not that dumb as you think. Surrender! being naive is the most stupid attitude i had. If you were drunk, I might forget everything. A word 'Am not drunk at all'. Sorry to said, its the end of everything. Your true color is as real as what they told me for the pass half year. Told myself, I don't care how people look at you, I believe you have yourself, your own thoughts. All just fade away..

You.. Once again let me felt that theres no friendship exist,
will only have certain purposes that make two human get along.
And it is so real. I trust my eyes.
Am tired! Am insane! That's the end of it!
Doesn't need time to digest,
What goes around comes around.

-Perhentian Island-

2009-04-27T12:25:00.009+08:00

Laugh a litto first..
Two words to describe the bang gang that i join for the trip..
*FAI* *NO ROAD*

*RIP bro..*

*Lolz.. The first Victim: Siang*

*Meiz Moiz*

*Moiz . Beh's Shoulder.. am drunk from the day til the night..*

*is Freaking Blur,and tis is capture during the day*

*See the power of beerrrry*

*Keez . moiz*

* Tat . moiz*

*Lolz*

*just awake*

*just awake ll*

*Night Session*

*Yeoz!!*

Have lotsa laughter and fun.. Thanks guys.. =)

Bufday Buzz!

2009-04-07T12:02:00.008+08:00

*~Appie Bird day!!~*
Dearest Dai Lou, Dar & Kai Kai!! Muackz!!

*zoe . yin . moiz*

*dar . kai . dai lou . ivan*

*Beee . moiz*

*kai . moiz . yin*

*F4*

*beauty & the Beast*

*dar . yin. moiz . kai*

*my lurve . poser lover*

moiz . yin . honey

Jet'aime Muahzz..

Litto Update

2009-04-02T11:47:00.008+08:00

Been busy for a week =( Fighting for few tenders. Duhz.. God! I miss my bed badly!
Before all these, I am so in lurve with iPhone, hmm hmm, guess now its totally out of my list.
Because of facing too much of iPhones. Puik!! Feel like puking.

Been a while that I am having insomnia these days, imagine that half way I am into dreamland and end having nightmares of 'OMFG! Haven't finish my visuals'. Gao meng arh.. Insane!!
Funniest part will be I am telling my friend to log in to HOTMAIL.com but I TERSAID.. HOTLINK.com. >.<'' Babi betul. My closest colleague cum housemate cum litto sis is leaving us soon, kinda sad douz, anyway wish you all the best my litto Mei Meiz =)

-Meiz & Moiz-

* few update photos for muh birthday partay =)*

-Meiz & Moiz & Sam-

-Ngan & Moiz-

-Jon & Moiz-

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Recently having a very great time with my long lost peeps (Kepong Kaki), luckily i get to join Dai Lou's birthday partay =) and met Dai Sou. LOL, May all the blessings and happiness shower upon both of you.
Having lotsa fun with them. Realize that, they are really my Precious! Lurve them the most!! Coming Saturday and Sunday will be Alkie & Jeff's Big Day, no doubt dude, I am IN.. Count Me In! Hoho, promised Jeff that I won't be FFK Queen on his big day and I will keep the promise douz =) but!! might have special occasion that block me =p Will try muh best.

Chiowz-

Reunion

2009-03-27T14:52:00.007+08:00

Reunion With My Dearest

~Wuhoo~ Muh Long Lost Babies~*

*Honey & Beee*

*My Blood Brother Terry*

*Long Lost Brother*

Went Club 21 at Changkat Road, Its been a long period didn't hang out with my babies.
Though is bitsy tired, but it's worth, fact is, I do miss them alot!
Drink and shake around~ Babies I heart both of you very muchie.

Met Bro Terry also, sorry bro for didn't keep in touch. It's been a tough period for me.
Promised you guys will never lost contact even though I am freaking busy.
~Actually been lazy to drive all along from Puchong to Kepong =P Oops~

Do have a great night! Chiowz =)

*Worst Post of the Year*

*Goh & I*

*Hinz & I*

*Sweet Pose*

*We change alot!*

*Honey's Lurve*

*Groupies*

*Sleepy di lerr*

For Fun =P

2009-03-24T20:30:00.005+08:00

Realized that MUSHROOM head is my trademark.. Sweat... Went for hair cut last Saturday, its too messy and Hon said it looks bit 'Seafood'.. Chop it off then, I can cover up my face again =)

*From This*

*Back To This*

Bitsy weird this time, maybe cos of the previous straightening effect..
Hairy hairy grow grown grew!!

Muh Birthday Bash =)

2009-03-24T17:17:00.012+08:00

- Thanks to all my peeps for giving me a wonderful birthday -

=19th March 2009 Genting Starbucks=

*Mei Meiz's Lame Surprise ' Banana Chocholate Cupcake'*

*Jon & Hung : Thanks for keep us accompany thou you guys are tired*

Its kinda funny cos everyone of us were darn tired as stayed awake for continuous 3 days
-big thanks to Meiz & Jon for accompany finish up my visuals =*)-
yet you guys still plan to give me a marvelous night out. Can't deny that talk to both you is quite Gek Hei.

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=20th March 2009 : Cavell Hartamas & Black Hole Hartamas=

*Make a Wish @ Cavell Hartamas*

*Hon always the one who clean up the mess, lotsa Lurve! Muahh*

*Big Thanks to the owner for the free drinks, oops couldn't finish muh cakey*

*What a surprise -.-*

*The funny and the naughty one =') acting Gay*

*Muh Ladies Kerrie Bee & Sweetie Kie Yin*

*Muh Best Gutz Jeff*

*Cute Douz*
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=Second Round @ Black Hole=

*Kerrie Me Zoe*

*Alkie & I*

*Babe & I*

*Wayne & I*

*The guys*

*Heart Guinness The Most*
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=21th March 2009 : Bamboo9=

*Meiz & Moiz*

Heart all of you.

Arish-teru

2009-03-13T18:34:00.006+08:00

I have nothing now, never realize that its not the way I really wanted.

Mom, sis, I really miss both of you. I am not that tough indeed.

Am insecure now, all these happens is it cos of me?

Just a word, I need you, is it that hard to speak out?

It seems to be a game for you, but it is NOT.

No one understands me, no one really do cares what I need what I want.

I don't want anything. Anymore.

Random Mii

2009-03-04T16:02:00.005+08:00

Fooling With *Akhma*

*Yea its Mii*

New Life! Be a Happie Pieces!! Life sucks but yet still need to Keep Going.

This is so called *Life*

Random me and that is Mii.. =)

Peeps, no matter how hard it is, everyone is keep going still, so do U & Mi..

2009-03-03T19:14:00.008+08:00

I need a holiday!! Really do hope I can relax and have a good sleep and of course!!- it will be more than 8 hours. LOL!!

Kinda free today as all the big bosses not around but still I am doing some stuff and busying *Day Dreaming*. Dream of when can i have a long off day to go for a trip, have a long shopping, have some time bull-shitting with my frenzzie.. Urgh, what a good dream.

Since last year, my life never endless with the word *busy*. Why? Maybe already be part of my life and habit. And I just notice something, once I stop down, I will - LOST. Don't know what to do, walking here and there, eating like for nobody business which I am not hungry at all. Duhz, Thats why I gain weight in a superb way. Gosh, what the hell is going on?? Lot people thought stress and lack of sleep and rest will slim down. Actually it doesn't help at all, in other way one will put on weight instead. Because lack of sleep, your mind couldn't function well to differenciate what your body really needs. Hence, eat will make you stay awake so??-- EAT larh...

Avion teaches me few exercise to increase our metabolism instead of diet, *sweat*. Its not that easy as I imagine, freaking hard wei! I rather swim 20 round than doing that. Why? hoho cause after doing the exercises, the next day you will suffered the pain, just like the whole body being punch.

My birthday coming soon!! ugrh, what a sad case, getting old, --*Old Ass Lady* LOL
What is my birthday wish will be? I wish I wont get old, always fresh, and also challenge a higher level! LOL. Pray for INSUFFICIENT brain and photographic memory!! Amen!!

Wanted a Black Skull Toy Watch and PSP badly wei.. anyone wanna sponcer me??

Wanted to change lappy as well, because my lappy couldn't support 3D Max and the others software, darn LACK wei! Spotted Sony Vaio Redizz but Jega said Asus graphic far more crazy than others wor. Wait wait, might get a free Apple Mac *in my dreamland* LOL

Sometimes stay in *dreamland* will stay far more happy. Trust me! Don't involve much in the world, you will suffer. Be Naive sometimes and you might not getting old that fast.

Lifes

2009-03-02T23:18:00.003+08:00

Being busy nowadays..
Nearly working none stop everyday, even weekends.
Question started surrounding me. Is this the job that really for me to move on??
My friends always laugh at me

'What you up to recently? howz life?'
'Ergh... Great??'
'Really? seems that you have NO Life..'

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I was like...? haha, yea..
Well, I've pushed myself to attend the 3D course.
Its tiring for traveling all the way to Klang and sat there for 8 hours per day.
Well, I am not really interested in it at the beginning, but after the basic thoughts, its kinda fun as its a bitsy alike with playing The Sim City. Lol.

I just went there for twice i guess, and i play around myself and steal some short cuts method from one of the freelancer my boss hired for one of the visuals. Hence, I learned more than i attend the class =p

At last i keep and fulfill my words, I will DIE DIE complete a proper visual in 3D within a month and I did it in a week. Yea, just for a breath. To make you all keep back the words. But is it the thing that i really wanted? I am so tired for being awake for whole night just to finish up the visuals. Sitting in Station One until 7.30am from 10pm?? Gosh, I realize....
Am really tired.. Even weekends I need to suffered these. Sometimes sitting there for a simple thingy which basically can be darn easy if i know the method, yet I need to figure it out myself, and its wasting time....

Getting older, really. Maybe because of lack of sleep and rest? My sis was shocked when she saw my photo..

'Wa, yer, you getting older..'

Yea sis, You're right..>.<
What else can I do?! Even facial also don't have the spare time.
The most striking news might be I bang the car early in the morning just because I FALL ASLEEP. Argh.. Tired WEI!!!!!!

Thats why I went swimming everyday.. It does help to release stress and freshy. MINOR larh...
Lets Do It!! Will tell myself : Never give up so easily!

Chiowz.

2009-02-06T18:52:00.003+08:00

Sweat, a strict church here..

I wanna Be Na na nannnn

2009-02-06T12:14:00.012+08:00

' Tee, Something Out of The Box '

What my Boss used to tell me...
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Argh!!! Yea yea, I get what you mean, and I'm trying..

' Something had blocked you, figure it out. '

Well, I have no ideas at all.. lol
Maybe I dislike there is any a lot requirement need to be consider in the visuals?
Or, I lurve unequal designs than designs with dimension, squarish?
and maybe, I fed up with those Unreasonable Clients.. >.<

Blast it OUT!! Trying my very Best =/

M a mime..

2009-02-05T18:14:00.005+08:00

Work, concept, ideas... Aduh... apa tu?!?
Tiring, stress, stuff get stucked all around my mind..

Question mark, flowing here and there day night long..

Insomnia.. Appeared..

Sometimes I am being curious on WHY God will let things happened in a certain way.
Things that you doesn't meant it, it will just blast out and everything seems twisted and turned to a dead end.

WHY?

Sometimes when you gain back the faith and trust, it will just fade away like the dust.
At this moment, it suppose to be this
Who knows, it is totally differ after a second?

It is terrible. I can't do anything but just to act like..
' Let It Be ' ?
Which is thrown myself into depression and hurts without saying a single word, or to be
' Collapse ' in the other words?

Explanation - Is no longer stands for an important role in my life anymore. Why would I said so? Because man will easily get influenced. That's why, no matter how, stand strong for your right. How hard and serious you're explaining, there will always a hole to blown down everything.

Mom, you were definitely true as we should hands off every single things to God, no matter it is big things or small things, God is there to listen every single word we pour out. Yet, when we share nor not sharing with man, there will be 'preservatives' added into the conversation therefore... Misunderstanding and rumors occurred.

It is not a small matter, yet it will bring a big impact to certain people, for those who is weak, they might get hurt and will bring every single emotion ahead to negative side. For me, I will NUMB - in sense of feelings and action.

Actually there is a lot of words in me, which I choose not to share out. Same shit different day - 'is to protect myself'. I don't know and never expects it will be around to another way which is more complicated to people beside me. Is it a fault for me to keep my mouth Zipped? or not to express myself?? Well, as I said, stand strong for my own, it may sound rebellious and doesn't benefit to me at all for acting that way. Trust me, you will not choose to know every single things of mine, because you might treat me as a failure.

As what he told me, 'you should learn how to takes thing easy and on top of that; put things down easy'

Let it be.. As long as you happy.. I HAPPY.. =)

Lalala =P

2009-01-02T16:09:00.004+08:00

Check this out, i browse it while I'm free and it's freaking disgusting!

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Holy Crap! I couldn't imagine how hurt it is and how do they bear the pain? Yewwz..

By the way, I found an article which about ' Should Christian get Tattoo?'
Well, this is always bothering me all these while, check this out.
http://www.christianitytoday.com/tcw/2008/julaug/3.16.html

Besides, get to another link of a testimonial which really amaze me. Its about how God heals the deep emotional scars of a lady who was raped.
http://www.christianitytoday.com/tcw/2002/julaug/18.24.html?start=1

Chiowz...

Happy New Year 2009

2009-01-02T12:52:00.015+08:00

Apiee New Year everyone!!

May blessing shower upon you on your side come 2009!!

Am staying at home during eve just like what i did during Christmas time. Lol, as the plaster is still on my cheek (not small yet quite HUGE, darn it). Argh!! But having the presence of Avion and Family to usher in the new year is a good start.

I Want...

* complete few courses I have planned *

* take more effort and ownership on my job *

* earn more money and have my own shop

* will go back to the Lord my God *
(am MIA in church for half a year? a year?)

* will be a sparkling daughter and sista *
(time to say bye to my bad habits =P)

* learn to cook simple dishes and dessert *
(hope to get myself a cake on my big day)

* won't meet with end of the world *
(i still got lot things haven't fulfill yet)

* world peace *

* friends of mine get their true love *

* X fats gain *

* new car *
(i know is impossible, just a wish ok.)

Sony DSLR with fisheye lense!!

PSP or Nintendo!!

Mac book or Sony Vaio?!!

I-Phone!!

Enough! Enough! All these seems like Christmas pressie than target..=.=lll
Mom always says: Don't be greedy and God will provide all you desires.
Alright, I'm waiting quietly oh God! =P

Heard that Kerrie beee met an accident on the eve, hope you're fine and get well soon, loads of love. Muackz!

Bless me a good 2009 and I hope the same for you too!

Well, Oh Lord, shower me with your blessings~
make my year a triumph one and let everything I wanted to achieve be smooth sailing for me and my loved ones.

God Bless.

Peace <3

2008-12-31T14:50:00.005+08:00

Peace, appeared..
Was hiding inside my room for the whole night long yesterday. Thinking what is the problems now. Am lost again. Lol. You guys must be thinking what the crap la, everyday lost lost lost and lost.
I have no idea indeed, maybe I'm naive? or I just started to step out from my comfort zone as what Dougie used to said? That's why I take things serious and yet kinda hard for me to give and take. Just being confused that why it is so hard for me to put things down? Nah, it only applies to those who I really cares for.

But, I guess i know what to do. Maybe I should not take things too hard, or as what he always said to me. ' You will always be the one who take but never give '. =P I'm still a child what. I heart you so I need to learn to take what ever crap you give. =P

All I need is just a comfort zone

2008-12-30T17:25:00.004+08:00

Tired, tiring? Yes I am, there is a lot a lot of question marks in me.
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Am i not being good enough?
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Or am always a failure..
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Stop tearing me..
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All I need is just a comfort zone...

Hey! I'm Back =)

2008-12-29T23:52:00.012+08:00

Miss me? Lolz, I knew my peeps will gonna said I'm MIA (missing in action) for a long while.
Opz, so so so sorry! Been busy busy busy, thou sometimes I'm free but lazy to update my blog =P
I miss all of you! Been busy with events, with M&M (mah colleagues), and...... But do miss my Kepong kaki damn muchie! Especially Honey, Beee, Mr Pondering..

Duhz, lotsa stuff been happening recently, Happy, Sad, Tears, Bleed. Lots! But lazy to type pula.
Merry Christmas everyone! (though its late). Did you guys leave the turkey alone? =P

Christmas only marh, what so special? Christmas is like a curse for me, every year before christmas for sure there is a war at home. Sama je for this year. My mom was angry to me because of a person, Its been a while she didnt shout at me, but this time she shout at me and SHE HANG MY CALL! Ugrh!!!!

Mom, I miss you. Though I felt that its kinda hard for me to accept the reason being scold, ala, never mind larh, I shouldn't be pissed off when you shout at me, cause I'm wrong as well. Mm, maybe I should learn how to control my EQ =P Sorry Mom.

But I got an unforgettable Christmas. Lolz, interested? Please call 012-63-----. Sweat =.=lll
I spend my eve with the *^%$ doctor for 2 hours plus..
Lagipun, I have to say NO to alcohol for a period, sobz...
That's why larh...
I have a pure Christmas this year. NO alcohol, NO clubbing, NO smoking.
Sorry M&M's, couldn't join u gals for this white Christmas.
&
Avion, thank you for giving me an unexpected celebration, warmth Christmas, Lotsa love.
&
Am apologizing for what I did,
What I did was very childish,
I acted in a way of being moody, unreasonable, ridiculous;
Sometimes I wish I could change the way things have happened,
The scar on you will be with me.
I'm so sorry for what I did, the tears we have been through, which
I never meant to hurt you.

2008-10-13T01:03:00.003+08:00

Been sick for a week, bad sore throat and flu. Darn...
Just ended an event of the Opening of 100th Old Town White Coffee @ Bangsar South. Check it out, and you might saw some of my designs there. Hoho~
Its tiring for awake for 24hours. End up slept for 12hours after the day end.. Sweat"

Tired in sense of mentality and physically duhz, a hidden stress in me which i couldn't speak out. Wonder what the heck is going on. I need a long rest indeed. I hate meeting up with others. Detest to open my mouth as well. Argh!!!! Get off from me!!!...

I just wanna be in my world, my own, with only myself. MYSELF.

You, I'm afraid I'll falls to you. Lots of coincidence. I guess, I should stay away from you. I couldn't imagine while I'm superb Down, you're the one who pop up in my mind. Shit. Might be too close with you until started to rely on you. Duhz, will never happen anymore. I Don't need Man in my life for this moment I guess. Hoho..

Gotta work now, wake up wake up!!!! Chiowz..

Jet'aime ~

2008-10-06T13:06:00.016+08:00

Yohz, been a long period for leaving my blog outdated. Hehe. Been busy busy busy busying nowadays. But its contented for having a pack life!

its still the same me~always that 'Sweet' =P

Went Tioman recently~ company trip~ hoho

what a great EXPERIENCE~

Well, its been a long while didnt contact with my peeps.. Gosh, you guys will never know how much i miss them! I miss my bed, my room, my washroom, my lappy, miss neslo kosong near Kai's house.. Argh! Damn Miss dude! And also my lovely Mama~ =)

After Tioman, went for a hair cut at Ady's saloon. Hmmm, he's the only one who knows well to my messy hair. Lolz.. Decided to dye my hair back to black and cut it SHORT.. This is what Ady told me

' You won't have the chance to leave your hair long ge larh. NOT PATIENT AT ALL '

Hehe, well.. Not to said no chance, yet is I am too particular.. In sense of MESSY.. Beh tahan myself looks messy.. Hoho.. In other words, I am vain.. Ahahaha~

At last i met with my Gangz last Saturday, celebrating Enn Jie's Birthday at Barcelona. Luckily need to meet with the manager for some paper work, and I am IN FOC.. Hoho..Duhzz, I miss them!! The first thing i did is hug them tight while I am there. Too sad to heard that

' I couldn't recognize you for the first glimpse! '

Jeff, Jeff.. Am i getting ugly thats why you cant recognize me?.. Sobzz..

Let the pics tell you guys whether we do spend a great time =)
Chiowz..

<3>

Partay @ Passion

2008-09-07T06:15:00.014+08:00

Craziieee night at Passion again.

Derrik will be going back to Taiwan later, Terry, Zoe and I slurp in to Passion again. Not regret at all. But is too bad that Kerrie beee not joining us. Its pack and hardly breath at the beginning.. Get better after a while =) and camwhoring Began.. Lolz..

Bye Derrik.. Lolz, might meet again soon cos no longer to reach January.. The notty one will be back on January..

Cheers.. =)