With precious babe ZoE

Went drinking with bro and hon at 7atenine last night. Truly terrible, 2 shots of flaming, 2 shots of Bacardi apple, and another 2 don't know what name was that. Fuuh, Honey, you introduce the wrong bosses to me duhzzz, am nearly die wei. Lol. Mr cool ask for a date for movie, wondering, should I? Shouldn't I.

Saturday,
Definitely bored okay! Can't stand it. Was at BB's house and Zzzzz all the time cause am having hang over after the drink the day before. He's busying doing his job and so I just spend my Zzzz time there. Guess he forgotten that he supposed to accompany me to get a matress before I move in to the new place, and so do movie that he had mention. Around 5 plus he was craving for durian therefore we went out and bought it, back home and watch drama series. Wth, am freaking bored! The feeling of stuck in stranger's house was darn torturing. I can't sit like a biatch which I used to do, can't lay on the bed like for nobody business, can't do whatever I feel to. Darn it.

Awaited until 9 plus, as he's busying to key in his stuff, finally we get to get our ass out of the house! 7 hours! Puke.

'hmm, he off today, and he done all his stuff, after dinner perhaps is gonna be my time then'
tis is what Moi was wondering.

'Later I'm going out with Jason.'

Shiaaahhhhhhhh.. (Water splashing on mua blardy face)

Fark it. I have a selfish conclusion, no matter how free I am, how hardly I get to beg for holidays, ITS USELESS. Because there's no difference! You're the one who said this and that, but end up how? You said that I can request you to accompany me but how do you want me to ask as you promise people before considering the one sitting beside you? Started feel like am really looks like a puppet. Am farking tired facing YOU!!! Again you mention Her. Hello??.... Am I DEAD????

Can you please farking stop comparing this relatioship with your pass relationship?
Can you please farking stop comparing me with others?
I am who I am when you know me on the first day!
I drink, I smoke, I $#%^&, Am a farking biatch since the day you know me?
Just farking stop asking me to do this and that,

She doesn't smoke. It's farking none of my business, yea yea, she smoke but just for a month, SO? I HAVE TO QUIT FORSAKE OF THAT?CAN'T YOU JUST GET A LAME EXCUSE AS IN NOT HEALTHY??
You both only went for movie, walk around when you got time. You're sorry cause you can't get to get back to 18-22 that moment. SO?? MEANS YOU MUST BE BACK WITH THE SAME PERSON THEN ONLY YOU CAN DO ALL THIS??
She didn't text you when she's home letchu felt insecure and now I have to, just because you don't want the feeling of people dump you occur. AND I HAVE TO?
Guys calling me, 'Whose that?!' you shouted. How bout girls call you up? 'I don't have gf larh, 8 years also 'pao fui' la'. AND THIS THIS IS THE WAY YOU RESPECT THE GAL BESIDE YOU.
Gonna catch up with my peeps, 'guy or gal? courting you?', HELLO, YOU REALLY CONCERN OR YOU JUST AFRAID OF LOSING FACE.
'I will be back early, you come and look for me larh.' ISN'T SUPPOSED TO BE YOUR JOB FOR LOOKING ME?? you made me feel like am a hooker, or door finder?wth. AND guess what, your early will be 2 or 3 am. Darn early man.
'Don't likely often mang zang infront of me' He said. EXCUSED YOU, WHEN YOU MANG ZANG FOR FARKING NO REASON NAGGING FOR NO REASON AND WHAT'S THAT DUDE? AM MANG ZANG JUST BECAUSE YOU ALWAYS PUSHED ME ASIDE!

Told cha, this is the way I am when we know each other.
Do you still remember we smoke together at first we drink?
Am craving for alcohol cig like for nobody business since am working in event line, and You Know; Don't farking turn back and tell me how She behave and I have to follow Izit? Who the hell are you telling me all sorts of nonsense! Okay fine. Go and get your farking MJ tatts and leave me alone! Hug tight your past till the end of the world!

Am lose, I tried, hardly works.
Am wishing at least once, ONCE, there's a blog post of mine saying that AM HAPPY TODAY WITH MY BB.
Guess it will not happen. Cause I believe, relationship doesn't work out if only one side is trying hard. It involve both party. Dude, I surrender.