Finally. Broke down.
Lol, having fever now due to invisible stress am facing. In terms of work and rs.
Its been a while i leave here empty as am really busy recently. Back to back tenders to pick on.
Can't breath, being moody and stuck in unstable mood. Just like the world is owning me thousands and millions.

Was staying at home yesterday but yet received some message that really irritate my life, the feeling at that moment was like WTF?! Pissed! Early morning when I am awake, bad bodyache I am suffering to and I decided to get a day off, while there goes the nightmare began. Moreover, I heard from my colleague that Someone might join us back in our company, being so hardly to forget the past but Why? Why all bouncing back? headache.

Forget bout it.

His been busy recently, or I should say He never be available for all these while. But I understand this is the timing for you to fight for your future, so... ZIP.

But it's getting worst as the feeling seems getting far far away from the track. He saying that I always blocked him from further conversation. Am I? But He'll never know that he is actually slightly the same with me. Lol.

Maybe this is the way we are.

Well, I can't predict what will happen the next as obviously we didnt really meet each other due to our Abnormal working hours. Hence, as what nai ma always tell me, let it be, get used to His character.

Maybe this is the way I can act. Cause you told me before that,
you won't let people know what is actually in your mind.

He's saying that I seems bored to this relationship and giving him a feeling of,

I Don't Need A BF?? wth?? Duh, I didnt, i guess.
I do hope it work out, but when I lead into the conversation of settling it,
You cut me off, and you will try to avoid.
But when you lead into that, I will Buta-buta kena from you =/

Instead,
Am having a feeling that He haven't really put down MC.
Just a feeling. But girls feeling always darn Zun geh... LMAO.

All these while, If Nai ma is not around me i guess am already collapse.
Been click to Nai ma's blog and found out that he might give up on his baby, I was like

OMG!

Lol, Please don't give up baby as I'm one of your happy pie isn't? Thou am bitsy of complicated in mindset but am still believe that I did bring laughter to you right? (cos am freaking idiotic and always falls to their trap, 'Singapore spy'.. Faint!!).

♥ You, nai ma =)

Tomorrow, there might be a change of my life. No idea whether I want it to be happen or not.
Leave it to the Almighty one. I wanna say Buhbye to all the burden am facing.


Jet'aime,
Do hope you know what am thinking as per
I dowanna give up so easily.
But if things really can't work out.
I have no choice but to get rid of it.
No matter one is trying so hard.
But you never notice it. or
Might be am not in your heart yet?
For sake of U and Mi.
Maybe the hardest decision will be the best for us.

P/S . I ♥ You.