Lotsa stuff in my mind, have loads of thingy needs to be done by this week. No matter what, no matter how, all needs to be settle! I am moving out to stay with mama ( duh freedom mana??) BUT BUT freedom balik during middle of May where she's leaving for a trip to Australia.

Yesterday, he came. Its 2 plus in the morning. Wondering why you still here. Thought its the end of everything. You're the one who blast out the words of hurting without consider how big the impact will be. ' Bet the most important part is between your leg '. Izit means that others part is not important? Hurts does cost! Heck, mom always said try to get a christian man to be my life partner, at the end still the same what. Humanity is all the same where don't care what the hell you are. Mom, if the guy is a good guy, religion doesn't plays in an important role.

I'm glad I know both of you which really gave me darn loads of lesson. I'm growing even more. At least, I will learn to protect myself more! But at the same time, I realize that theres a bunch of guts that really care for me. Without you guys, guess I will not stand up so easily. Because of you guys, I learned to live for a betta life.

Keez, thank you for everything, you always keep yourself in stand-by mode just to ensure that I will not suddenly break down again. Thank you Thank you for the precious words of comfort. Thank you for always ensuring that I am safe, ensure that somebody is with me, though sometimes you felt that you're nagging me, but Your caring kept me warm all the time. Don't understand why I stick to you so much, but definitely not like what you said you're my 'bou mou'. LMAO. Thousand appreciation! Lurve ya!

Chris & CY, thanks for what you did, sorry for giving you guys such a big surprise, yet still you guys still be here for me.

Beh, sorry babe for not respect you where I always be the decision maker and didn't consider how you feel. Sorry that I had bang you in all sorts of problems. Sorry for the pain that I led. Thanks for treasuring me for so much and I knew that you're trying your best to secure me. I will try not to keep things in me. Hope that you will understand that am care for you but just that I don't know the way to express it out to you. I know theres reason why we get along, because I believe thing comes for a reason, and I will treasure it babe. Maybe theres question that why it comes to this in a surprise way, where we just realize that actually we've bumped into each other for so long and at last we put our foot down and it came to this kind of situation. Thousand of apologise. Every scar on your body reminds me how much you sacrifice for me just to keep me safe. Thanks babe.